And the rain keeps falling, the rain keeps falling down...down down
Life...
thats pretty much all i have to give today. I'm looking through my window right now and all i see is cold, rain dripping to the ground with no purpose what so ever. Seems like my life but in a more bleek situation. Im no good with words today. Im going for my permit test some time this week, oh dear how weird. The beatles are the only thing pulling me through these days that never seem to end. god how horribly stupid that sounds? i dont care, i dont care. its like i have to remind myself. my friend is making a horrible descicion right now and im really starting to believe that she is going to regret what shes doing... well maybe not. Im not so sure, but i want her to do whats best for her, all i can do is give advice, knwning its not what she wants to hear. but then again most the advice i give people dont want to hear. I guess to my "friends" im someone to help them sort out their shit and when their done, their done with me. that always happens. well whatever i guess. i frankly dont give a shit about anything anymore. my lungs are literally fucked, i cant run for shit, my body is falling apart thanks to no appetite. i cant bare to eat anything just makes me fucking sick. I'm depending on tomorrow. tomorrow is going to be the day that saves me. tomorrow i will see his face and in that moment everything will be right again.
im off to sleep.
thats pretty much all i have to give today. I'm looking through my window right now and all i see is cold, rain dripping to the ground with no purpose what so ever. Seems like my life but in a more bleek situation. Im no good with words today. Im going for my permit test some time this week, oh dear how weird. The beatles are the only thing pulling me through these days that never seem to end. god how horribly stupid that sounds? i dont care, i dont care. its like i have to remind myself. my friend is making a horrible descicion right now and im really starting to believe that she is going to regret what shes doing... well maybe not. Im not so sure, but i want her to do whats best for her, all i can do is give advice, knwning its not what she wants to hear. but then again most the advice i give people dont want to hear. I guess to my "friends" im someone to help them sort out their shit and when their done, their done with me. that always happens. well whatever i guess. i frankly dont give a shit about anything anymore. my lungs are literally fucked, i cant run for shit, my body is falling apart thanks to no appetite. i cant bare to eat anything just makes me fucking sick. I'm depending on tomorrow. tomorrow is going to be the day that saves me. tomorrow i will see his face and in that moment everything will be right again.
im off to sleep.