This is what it's like to be me...
So, i'm here in my room, just hanging out and thinking. I really want to go to the gym right now. But i have no car and it's pretty shitty weather. So i'm debating whether to just wait until tomorrow. I dunno.
I have a ton of studying to do. This weekend i kinda wanna get everything together so that i'll be able to work more on tues and wed instead of study. My exam schedule isn't bad except for the fact i have an exam at 4pm on saturday. But that's my last one! So this time next week around 6 i'll be done. Then just have to write a paper on the busing/anti-busing controversy in Boston and then i'm done. It'll be good to be all finished up and my gpa should be high again this semester.
Which is pretty important, since i've made the decision i'm going to apply to the Oxford summer program. It'll only cost $5500, run july thru mid-august and give me a chance to do something outside of amherst this summer. it was fun the past 2 summers but i don't think i wanna go back to NSP again. this summer i felt like a dick half the time, wasn't really the head counselor i wanted to be. I don't know what the hell happened to me during those 8 weeks but it kinda made me more of a blank person. Just not caring about as much anymore and stuff. Focused too much on work and that is totally not me. But going and doing things like Oxford is, something more rewarding, less stressful, and will make me happy. And then i can tell people i studying at Oxford during college, haha.
I'm so low on money right now. It sucks. I can't wait to sell all my books back and get my first paycheck from my new job (i missed the last pay period cuz reffing ended and my new job didn't start until this period). Next year none of this will be a problem since i'll be an RA again. I always second guess myself on this decision i made to live off-campus. My room is a cell, it's small, and i miss the huge double single, not to mention the sweet stipend i get for being an RA. Maybe i should've just stayed in grayson/field. I mean, my room can't even get cable cuz of how this house is set up...o well, i gotta live with it.
Not to mention i would've had the truck too...what the hell was i doing?
O well, I guess that's enough for now. hopefully going to Gold's in like an hour or so. I'm out.
I have a ton of studying to do. This weekend i kinda wanna get everything together so that i'll be able to work more on tues and wed instead of study. My exam schedule isn't bad except for the fact i have an exam at 4pm on saturday. But that's my last one! So this time next week around 6 i'll be done. Then just have to write a paper on the busing/anti-busing controversy in Boston and then i'm done. It'll be good to be all finished up and my gpa should be high again this semester.
Which is pretty important, since i've made the decision i'm going to apply to the Oxford summer program. It'll only cost $5500, run july thru mid-august and give me a chance to do something outside of amherst this summer. it was fun the past 2 summers but i don't think i wanna go back to NSP again. this summer i felt like a dick half the time, wasn't really the head counselor i wanted to be. I don't know what the hell happened to me during those 8 weeks but it kinda made me more of a blank person. Just not caring about as much anymore and stuff. Focused too much on work and that is totally not me. But going and doing things like Oxford is, something more rewarding, less stressful, and will make me happy. And then i can tell people i studying at Oxford during college, haha.
I'm so low on money right now. It sucks. I can't wait to sell all my books back and get my first paycheck from my new job (i missed the last pay period cuz reffing ended and my new job didn't start until this period). Next year none of this will be a problem since i'll be an RA again. I always second guess myself on this decision i made to live off-campus. My room is a cell, it's small, and i miss the huge double single, not to mention the sweet stipend i get for being an RA. Maybe i should've just stayed in grayson/field. I mean, my room can't even get cable cuz of how this house is set up...o well, i gotta live with it.
Not to mention i would've had the truck too...what the hell was i doing?
O well, I guess that's enough for now. hopefully going to Gold's in like an hour or so. I'm out.