Jan 09, 2006 21:18
I think a lot of us forget people's feelings. Like seriously, we all can be really mean to eachother. Think about all the things you said to people today, or what you said about someone today, or who you steriotyped or turned your nose up to. We are all struggling to be accepted, or liked, or anything. I just finished talking to my brother, someone who has more problems than someone can count on both hands and toes. He is 21 about to be 22, and he has had 3 friends in his whole Life, one when when he was 5, one when he was 12, and one when he was 15. I get mad at him a lot because he sucks up to my parents a lot. But we talked about it and I felt really guitly for acting how I do sometimes... He just sorta broke down today. He said, " Lexi, I am about to be 23, and I don't have any friends. Not one. I am so lonely,and the reason I suck up to Dad and mom so much is because they are the only two people who really take care of me. I have never been on a date, no girls have ever had a crush on me, and the only people who really talk to me are the people who make fun of me... And you know what the worst part about it is lex, I can't. When I try to talk to people all I can say is 'hi how are ya doing?' then I choke up, I freeze, I get really nervous, and it almost hurts because I am afraid they think I am weird."
I talked to him about all of that. And then he walked away, and just finished reading his book. I don't know if you know my brother, He's the guy who clears his throuat a lot, reads a lot, walks around day dreaming, quiet, talks to himself, and sits by himself. But you know what? He is a really great guy. One of the best I know, Really nice, funny, likes to make people happy. and he deserves a friend, and god has given him so many chanllenges he has to concurr. it isn't fair. Lucky for him there are some medications that make things better. and thats good. I just wanted to remind you guys...there are a lot of people like him. A lot of "my brothers" and I just want you guys to remember, next time you see someone sitting by themsleves, or is scared that you talk to them, or figety...or weird....remember..they could be just like him. Alone....but really just wants someone to care and be there friend. Before you make fun of them, or pick on them, or ignore them....just think.
And if you see my brother around... a wave wouldn't hurt.
thanks guys