thoughts i can't control...

[straylightrun_x]

today's show was awesome, a thorn for every <3 is a great band. even if they "did" suck but they don't...they would get points for being hotties =). i got a pic of the vocals half nakkie...okay he had his shirt off but boy was it nice lol. lots of hot ppl go to these shows like all the gurls and guys are hella sexy. the highlight of the night was when i got in the moshpit that kicked ass. i just felt in that short moment that nothing mattered, i was in my own little world and no one could hurt me. well i did get hurt my foot is sorta bruised, but thats my own fault. i bought a shirt of athornforeveryheart its cute its light pink w/ black letters. i also bought a cd from one of the bands we missed since we got there late (Astrophix). i thought the pics i took at the show were gonna be better then what they actually were,o well =/! i had a good time and thats all that counts. i wanted to get home early tho so i could talk 2 carlos,i didn't think he was gonna be on when i got back but he was. i thought the show was gonna end at 12 or 1 but it was almost done when lari,jeannette, and i took off.
at the moment i'm pretty calm, tho i did feel really bad a while ago. i don't want to doubt carlos and i but sometimes its hard. i care about him so much..and i kno he was being sincere when he said was sorry. i think i got even sadder about the situation because i don't want someone there to take him away from me...maybe that a big part of it. i have a lot of trust in him and it feels so right. i hope this was just going to make us stronger...and not pull us part. *dont let go of something so sweet* im off to bed. toodles

- Ayissa <3