when will the craziness end?
so...is anyone else totally stressed out this week...scratch that...this six weeks? it seems that as soon as school started it was:sat's, class rankings, where are you going to college? what's your major? are you doing this? are you doing that? how do you do it all? can you do it all? what are your grades? are you getting 8 hours of sleep?...yikes! i'm so ready for this stressful life and tiem to be over! i'm sick of having "college discussions" with my parents! they can't answer my questions...i can't answer my questiosn...i don't know what in the world they want, i don't even know what i want anymore! is anyone else having this problem? it's like my parents want me to know exactly what i want to do for the rest of my life...now...for crying out loud, i'm only 17! i don't know! if i did, i owuldn't be in this dillemma to begin with...argh...i'm so aggravated! and what's most frustrating is i know i should be trusting God with my future, but it's so hard to do...i can't see Him, and i don't know what i want, let alone what He wants...does He want me to be a teacher...a missionary...a doctor...a nurse...a stay at home mom...? all valid occupations, all "good" jobs....but....what does He want? i think i'm in a low time...or a valley...as it's called sometimes...i'm so frustrated with myself...with my parents...i can't communicate waht i want, so they get upset at me...my brothers think i'm moving away forever, that i don't want to be around them anymore...nothing is further from teh truth...i just...i don't know...need to get away from here...for a little bit, not forever, just awhile...to grow up a little more...become an adult...make new friends(not that there is anything wrong with my old friends!)...hmm...this song is pretty much me right now:
Renew Me
Why am I such a dusty window
For your light to shine through?
Why am I just a tiny star
In a sky already blue?
Why do I offer everything
With my heart closed like a fist?
I want to love You better than this
Why do I live like I'm in chains
When You have set me free?
And why do I have to break Your heart
Before I fall to my knees?
I know it's time to pray for change
Give all I have to give
I want to love You better than this
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
I need Your power to renew me, Lord, yeah
I need to know You're moving through me, Lord
I need You as my refuge
My first and last resort
Be the river always running
Through my deepest thoughts
Keep me in Your arms
'Cause even when I drift
I want to love You better than this
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
My life bending to Your will
Seeking You until I'm more and more like You
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
yes...well...i am afraid i must go back to this world i live in...maybe tonight i won't cry myself to sleep...that'd be good!a verse...to remind me i can never be separated from God's love...even though i make such stupid mistakes!Romans 8:38-39 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
John 10:27-29My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and
they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and
they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater
than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand. well...back to this monotonous, crazy world...but we are not alone!
p.s. sorry this is so long...i can't get an lj cut to work
Renew Me
Why am I such a dusty window
For your light to shine through?
Why am I just a tiny star
In a sky already blue?
Why do I offer everything
With my heart closed like a fist?
I want to love You better than this
Why do I live like I'm in chains
When You have set me free?
And why do I have to break Your heart
Before I fall to my knees?
I know it's time to pray for change
Give all I have to give
I want to love You better than this
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
I need Your power to renew me, Lord, yeah
I need to know You're moving through me, Lord
I need You as my refuge
My first and last resort
Be the river always running
Through my deepest thoughts
Keep me in Your arms
'Cause even when I drift
I want to love You better than this
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
My life bending to Your will
Seeking You until I'm more and more like You
So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
yes...well...i am afraid i must go back to this world i live in...maybe tonight i won't cry myself to sleep...that'd be good!a verse...to remind me i can never be separated from God's love...even though i make such stupid mistakes!Romans 8:38-39 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
John 10:27-29My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and
they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and
they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater
than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand. well...back to this monotonous, crazy world...but we are not alone!
p.s. sorry this is so long...i can't get an lj cut to work