yay for not updating in awhile!

[strawybears]

today my dad got a letter from his brother in prison...it's sad, but he talked a little bit about how God's in control...and he was going to start a biblestudy but can't because all south-mexicans are on lockdown(do they just randomly pick an ethnic group to put on lockdown?)...his daughter is growing up without a father....his wife is husbandless(but she was before when he was high all the time...) it's so sad.(many, many tears have been shed) my dad was reading it and said to me again, "Ariella, don't do drugs! This is where it leads..." It's depressing really, how poorly off that family is doing...and knowiing that we've done all we can, other than continually pray for them...I mean, they all get drunk like every night, except for my grandparents...my nana is doing well...i guess considering she's had breast cancer, has diabetes, has had a couple heart attacks...but still, she's not going to live forever...it breaks my heart seeing them, because I know that there isn't anything I can do. And their hearts are hard and full of false teachings of the catholic church...and it's so difficult to just trust, which is all that can be done...I suppose a really good reason to get back into the habit of praying and reading regurlaly, since I've been really slacking in that this whole summer...I don't know how long they have left...I don't know how long I have left! I could die tomorrow(I hope not, but it's possible...)...maybe that's why I have such a burden to go into missions...definitely not a glamorous life, but so many need the life-changing gospel...
on a happy, less pensive note...i went to a dodger game yesterday...of course, they lost to the reds...peanuts and paper were being thrown at me because i was sitting in front of a reds fan...still sick, my throat is bugging me...canceled sr picture for tomorrow since i look "peaked" as my mom said...brother lost a contact...have to go pick up his yearly supply tomorrow...about a zillion flies in the house...and i have to watch my brothers tomorrow...yay? going to bed now!