The summer is all in bloom...
Well I'm sliding into the swing of summer, and I'm liking it. My lazzzy days are filled with waking up late, Maria and Corey, and swimming pools. My nights are filled with more of Maria and Corey, frequent trips to Mt. Chataqua, movies, talking about "the stuff", and running around with a crazy boy! When I was in middle school I hated summer because it defined my friendships between "school friends" and "friend-friends." But now I use summer as my retreat, an escape from reality. A time to build up what the school year took away from me, self confidence and peace of mind. I can spend hours infront of the mirror, wander the mall by myself, and watch hours upon hours of TV. No stress, no judgement, just time to myself. Nothing warms my soul like the summery sun beams.
Also I'm left with hours upon hours of listening to my IPOD and allowing myself to be consumed by my thoughts. Lately I've been thinking about gambling, because as the situation with Alex progresses that's where I am left. Dice in hand and I'm betting on my heart. I could throw caution to the wind, bet it all and end up VERY happy with a wonderful person by my side, but if the numbers don't fall into place I could very easily end up picking up the pieces of another shattered heart. The only valid question formulated is "Is it worth the risk?" I want to put this on the back burner of my mind, and forget it's there for a while but everytime I see a happy couple or hear a girlfriend gush...I really do want him.
In other, less meaningful news, I am officially a BLONDEY BLONDE! After soaking up the sun at the pool some day this week with my mom, I think I took on too many rays because I decided to be adventuresome and dye my hair. Standing in the aisle at Walgreens the many bottles of $6.99 dye because all alike, and I picked the prettiest summery blonde. It's in between Britney Spears and Marilyn Monroe. Yeah...I don't really like it, but I'm not discontent enough to spend $100 to go have it fixed. It's a summer look and will take some adapting.
Also I'm left with hours upon hours of listening to my IPOD and allowing myself to be consumed by my thoughts. Lately I've been thinking about gambling, because as the situation with Alex progresses that's where I am left. Dice in hand and I'm betting on my heart. I could throw caution to the wind, bet it all and end up VERY happy with a wonderful person by my side, but if the numbers don't fall into place I could very easily end up picking up the pieces of another shattered heart. The only valid question formulated is "Is it worth the risk?" I want to put this on the back burner of my mind, and forget it's there for a while but everytime I see a happy couple or hear a girlfriend gush...I really do want him.
In other, less meaningful news, I am officially a BLONDEY BLONDE! After soaking up the sun at the pool some day this week with my mom, I think I took on too many rays because I decided to be adventuresome and dye my hair. Standing in the aisle at Walgreens the many bottles of $6.99 dye because all alike, and I picked the prettiest summery blonde. It's in between Britney Spears and Marilyn Monroe. Yeah...I don't really like it, but I'm not discontent enough to spend $100 to go have it fixed. It's a summer look and will take some adapting.