reflecting
As I sit here thinking about everything I have been through and put the ones I love through, I start to realize what I have fucked up. I miss those days from the summer. I miss the night that we got engaged. As we laid in my bed & giggled. Just kissed and talked. Giggled some more. Like little school girls. We were so happy and in love. Now he lives out here and I'm messing it up. Have I lost him? Have I lost him to someone else? I question friendships & trust. I question myself. What do I do.