*surgery*
i had my gall bladder out a week ago. having a surgery is just weird... pretty much what i expected. three or so days of pretty intense pain, but the pain pills worked well, and i only threw up once. it was the scariest puke i've ever seen, but i'm past it.
i took the whole week off from work and school to recover, so i'm really dreading going back to both on monday. i feel pretty good, just a little sore still. the problem is that walking makes it much more sore, and that's pretty much all i do at work. =/ plus i can never find a parking spot close to campus, so i really don't know what i'm going to do about that. yeah. scared.
i don't know yet if the surgery helped my "reflux" problem. supposedly i won't know for a month or so.. i have to eat plain until then (which i've been doing the past 2 months anyway). my family is hopeful that it will make a huge difference. i really don't believe it will. *shrug* but i hope it does. basically the next step is the tube down the stomach test, where you eat the food that makes you sick. since i'm convinced the surgery didn't help my stomach, i am already trying to figure out how the hell i'd do that test. there is no way i would intentionally eat food that causes severe pain and vomiting and death. i would have to do it at the hospital or clinic with an iv i think. they always end up giving me one anyway, so i don't see a problem with just planning on it. if it's acid they're lookin for, i could whip some up real quick. all i'd have to do is eat a spicy chicken sandwich, or taco, or spaghetti, or pizza, or chocolate, or an orange, or....anything. then they could kick in with the drugs, take the tube out, i'd throw up, and it would all be over in a matter of minutes. *sigh* after that could be the stomach surgery, which i... i can't even think about right now (especially things like "what if i have the surgery and i'm still sick?")... =/ i hate being sick. *sigh* i realize i don't have cancer or anything i could die from, but i still feel "sick" even on my good days. i am not a healthy person, i am a sickly person, and that is such a horrible feeling.
anyway, as for the gall bladder thing, i'm doing good.
i took the whole week off from work and school to recover, so i'm really dreading going back to both on monday. i feel pretty good, just a little sore still. the problem is that walking makes it much more sore, and that's pretty much all i do at work. =/ plus i can never find a parking spot close to campus, so i really don't know what i'm going to do about that. yeah. scared.
i don't know yet if the surgery helped my "reflux" problem. supposedly i won't know for a month or so.. i have to eat plain until then (which i've been doing the past 2 months anyway). my family is hopeful that it will make a huge difference. i really don't believe it will. *shrug* but i hope it does. basically the next step is the tube down the stomach test, where you eat the food that makes you sick. since i'm convinced the surgery didn't help my stomach, i am already trying to figure out how the hell i'd do that test. there is no way i would intentionally eat food that causes severe pain and vomiting and death. i would have to do it at the hospital or clinic with an iv i think. they always end up giving me one anyway, so i don't see a problem with just planning on it. if it's acid they're lookin for, i could whip some up real quick. all i'd have to do is eat a spicy chicken sandwich, or taco, or spaghetti, or pizza, or chocolate, or an orange, or....anything. then they could kick in with the drugs, take the tube out, i'd throw up, and it would all be over in a matter of minutes. *sigh* after that could be the stomach surgery, which i... i can't even think about right now (especially things like "what if i have the surgery and i'm still sick?")... =/ i hate being sick. *sigh* i realize i don't have cancer or anything i could die from, but i still feel "sick" even on my good days. i am not a healthy person, i am a sickly person, and that is such a horrible feeling.
anyway, as for the gall bladder thing, i'm doing good.