GOD
I'm really really.. unsure right this moment, I don't know if its a good feeling or a really bad one.. see .. my other always sends me mixed signals.. I dont know when hes trying to surprise me.. or when hes just being mean. .. like tonight. I was talking to him at work and he told me his dad was working late, so he wouldn't be able to stop by and help him fix the car .. so I told him I'd go get him .. and hes like " no " .. I asked him if he didnt want to see me. He said he didn't. .. so I still figure im going to get him .. but he turns his phone off, im not going to waste the gas all the way out there if he really doesn't want to come over.. so..
..I don't know what I should be thinking..maybe hes going to surprise me and show up, maybe he really did get it fixed.. or maybe he didn't and when he turns his phone back on .. im going to be morally depressed..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK. DAMMIT. ..so my hands are kinda .. I dunno, their shaking.. and my head is starting to hurt. god dammit.. things dont work out for me. I swear I have the worst luck possible. really, I do. I'll update later and let everyone know how it goes.. not that anyone actually reads it and cares. I don't. I just like to write write. :D ..
..I don't know what I should be thinking..maybe hes going to surprise me and show up, maybe he really did get it fixed.. or maybe he didn't and when he turns his phone back on .. im going to be morally depressed..I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK. DAMMIT. ..so my hands are kinda .. I dunno, their shaking.. and my head is starting to hurt. god dammit.. things dont work out for me. I swear I have the worst luck possible. really, I do. I'll update later and let everyone know how it goes.. not that anyone actually reads it and cares. I don't. I just like to write write. :D ..