wooster traditions..

[strawberryg456]

ultimate practice last night was amazing, i really am starting to love that game. I think the only problem that i had before was lack of encouragement. But now with Bart and Amy.. they're making me feel more confident, and therefore i enjoy playing more. I think i'm playing better too. :) so yay! After ultimate i ran into bart on the way to the library, and this made me happy because he was acting affectionate in public. Granted no one was around, but he hasn't kissed me outside since last year. So :) Then i headed to the library, got a lil work done.. ran into Gameli. I was worried things would be a little awkward, but they aren't, so that made me happy.. but sad at the same time.. because i guess before i told him about Bart, there was this flirtation thing going on that.. was a possibility (not that i would have acted on it.. i don't believe in cheating).. but it was fun to pretend sometimes. I know that sounds horrible, but its not like my feelings for Gameli aren't genuine. They are. And sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i wasn't with bart. But i am. so i shouldn't think about that. When i was leaving the library, i called bart, because he told me to call him when i was done. He answered the phone and told me that he was playing drinking games with his hallmates.. so i was like "okay.. well i guess i'll talk to you tomorrow...?" and he's like "okay bye". Um. i was pissed. and genuinely upset. i started questioning our whole relationship.. bc he's done this kind of thing before. And then i felt like it was only fair to let him know that i was mad.. so i sent him a text saying "i don't htink you realize how insensitive you can be sometimes". and.. after a bunch of shit.. i ended up going over there and everything was good again. :) i really do like him, and i want this to work.

I am a little worried though, because tomorrow is Valentine's day. I'm concerned that he's not going to do anything for me. While i like to think that i'm not one of those ppl that is sucked in by hallmark and everything else.. i am a romantic person, and i would be hurt if he didn't do anything. So shit. i guess we'll find out what happens. Tonight there is a shitload of snow on the ground, so we're (the school) going to fill up the kauke arch wtih snow.. it's a tradition in hopes that class will be cancelled. but eh. i doubt it'll actually happen. However, it'll be fun to try :)