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I've yet to learn how to deal with my feelings; torn between the need to talk them out and the knowledge that giving someone else that information doesn't necessarily make it better for both of us.
There are too many considerations:
1. Are my feelings valid?
2. Am I immature and insecure?
3. Will what I say be an accusation?
4. Do I care for you too much?
5. How will you accept and understand the things I will say?
6. What is the correct thing for you to say and ask?
And when there are too many feelings in my body and I worry that you might hurt me, I think again I'd running away. My self-preservation is v high and I want to run away before you can cripple me.
I wish for simplicity.
Just thoughts hurt me.