its like a thousand miles of fire....
editttttttttt
hes all i think about. all i want. i would give up the game for the rest of my life if it meant i could have him. FUCK THIS. ive been dreaming about him since MARCH. and i have been in love with him since JUNE. and does he even think of me? i bet not. anything he has ever wanted i gave him. i was a friend when he needed one, i listened to him bitch about his problems and fuck i even helped him with OTHER GIRLS, and i hooked up with him when he was horny. fuck you must think im crazy. i let him walk all over me. i would change myself in a second for him. and yeah call me desperate. GO RIGHT A FUCKING HEAD. i have hid my feelings for so long. i have covered them up by having other guys in my life. and now im just like FUCK IT. i want him. i need him. i have exactly ONE year to make him fall in love with me before he goes to college and let me tell you im not wasting any time. if it means i can never eat again FINE. i wont. I DONT CARE ANY MORE. i dont even get cravings anymore. IM GOING TO BE SKINNY. and then i will be hott. and when im hott hell want me. RIGHT? wrong....or maybe. ah i dont know. WHAT THE FUCK? I DONT KNOWWWW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
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look at it this way. i can get REALLY skinny, or i can die. EITHER way, i win.
hes all i think about. all i want. i would give up the game for the rest of my life if it meant i could have him. FUCK THIS. ive been dreaming about him since MARCH. and i have been in love with him since JUNE. and does he even think of me? i bet not. anything he has ever wanted i gave him. i was a friend when he needed one, i listened to him bitch about his problems and fuck i even helped him with OTHER GIRLS, and i hooked up with him when he was horny. fuck you must think im crazy. i let him walk all over me. i would change myself in a second for him. and yeah call me desperate. GO RIGHT A FUCKING HEAD. i have hid my feelings for so long. i have covered them up by having other guys in my life. and now im just like FUCK IT. i want him. i need him. i have exactly ONE year to make him fall in love with me before he goes to college and let me tell you im not wasting any time. if it means i can never eat again FINE. i wont. I DONT CARE ANY MORE. i dont even get cravings anymore. IM GOING TO BE SKINNY. and then i will be hott. and when im hott hell want me. RIGHT? wrong....or maybe. ah i dont know. WHAT THE FUCK? I DONT KNOWWWW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
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look at it this way. i can get REALLY skinny, or i can die. EITHER way, i win.