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so i haven't updated in forever...nothing new really, over the weekend went to NY for hallee's sweet 16, came back got sick, missed some school...boring boring. anyways i am going home soon cuz i'm too sick to stay and its the soonest my dad can come for me, but i wasn't going to come at all today except i have a test tomorrow so i had to come for review...i missed english and math and i'm leaving during chem and completely missing PE today but i made appointments with all my teachers, ugh i really hate being sick, i can't even think straight. but right now i am so miserable i just rather be dead or something, there is no one to talk to anyways i'm just alone...i wish lauren was here =( except i don't think i would want to talk to her cuz i know when i get really upset it makes her upset which i hate. there's no one at school i can really talk to, cuz even if i talk to someone sometimes things just get around and it ends up making everything worse. right now i just want to go home and just make everythging go away, these are the times when i want to be at another school. i hope i get in, no one would really notice i was gone anyways right? i might even talk to my parents tonight and tell them whats wrong...that would be a first, but i guess i'll have to cuz i have no one else to talk to...i'll proly meet with norrine tomorrow. so if you want to try to make me feel better call me at my dads tonight...but call at like 8 or after. if you don't know the number then....well idk you should know it. or i'll go online at like 4 so go on then and i can explain some stuff on IM. i'm going to go to the bathroom to get some tissues since i was just in the bathroom crying, ugh good thing no one saw me...i also have to finish this english poem, my teacher told me to write it about any time i felt "alone" this will be easy.