note: you posted this entry twice in your life journal lol
okay now: midterms are bitches and everyone stresses about them so not really able to avoid that. but if you want to complain or anything about them, im the person to come to, cuz i gotta lot of "opinions" on them =D.
i dont know why hannah brought that up, i mean i said we were going to D&B on friday and she was like "what" and i told her that we had gone before and still had all these tickets and needed to prize them. she seemed okay with it, and its not like she couldnt come, i mean i dont care if she does, didnt really cross my mind to or not to.
i feel like you guys are really tight as a group, and i sorta feel a tad on the outside. i dunno its complicated, and this is not my livejournal to talk about it in.
before this becomes a page long i'll end it with this: im sorry i asked whats wrong. im sorry if i make you mad. and im sorry i took up soo much space in this comments thing. but if you wanna talk, cuz i know things are just blah lately, they're blah for me too actuly, so i can relate and if you wanna talk im here. mkay, wow i wrote way to much. the end.
oh woops. yeah they are, haha ok. well it just turned into a bigger thing than it was for a little while so it was just awkward. i don't know, but also maybe everyone else realized you are trying to make other more mature friends than them? i don't know. haha ok, thanks.
actually the main reason im making other friends is because you guys are all leaving next year, and i dont wanna be the loner girl with no friends. and also because i feel like i really wanna get to know people, like people who i havent really had a chance to hang out w. i like hanging out with you guys but we are really exclusive sometimes and i just wanna expand my friendship further... does that mean you all should push me onto the outside? cuz if it does just let me know and i'll leave you all alone...
well chase and linnea aren't leaving, i don't know about hannah, and i'm not 100% sure about me...like i want to get to know other people that i haven't really become friends with, but it's kinda hard cuz you know groups have already been established and everything, and i don't think anyone else wants to be friends with me, cuz that's the impression i get from people...idk it's weird, we're not trying to push you onto the outside, or i'm not trying to cuz i never want to make you feel excluded or "on the outside"
i thought that too at first, but then when i actually made an attempt, i started forming new frieds and i was sorta surprised cuz i had gotten the impression people didnt want to be my friend. but really all it is, is that EVERYONE thinks that so no one makes the effort. its rather silly when you think about it. anywho i just felt kinda excluded when you guys went to safeway and then instead of coming back you went to a room and watched a movie, and when i saw you and chrissie in the hall you seemed like you were avoiding me or didnt want to talk. HOLD ON PHONE... it was my dad, hes picking me up a "mcfluffy" haha. yeah i forgot my point cuz my stomache has taken over my brain. laters!
okay now: midterms are bitches and everyone stresses about them so not really able to avoid that. but if you want to complain or anything about them, im the person to come to, cuz i gotta lot of "opinions" on them =D.
i dont know why hannah brought that up, i mean i said we were going to D&B on friday and she was like "what" and i told her that we had gone before and still had all these tickets and needed to prize them. she seemed okay with it, and its not like she couldnt come, i mean i dont care if she does, didnt really cross my mind to or not to.
i feel like you guys are really tight as a group, and i sorta feel a tad on the outside. i dunno its complicated, and this is not my livejournal to talk about it in.
before this becomes a page long i'll end it with this:
im sorry i asked whats wrong. im sorry if i make you mad. and im sorry i took up soo much space in this comments thing. but if you wanna talk, cuz i know things are just blah lately, they're blah for me too actuly, so i can relate and if you wanna talk im here. mkay, wow i wrote way to much. the end.
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yeah they are, haha ok.
well it just turned into a bigger thing than it was for a little while so it was just awkward.
i don't know, but also maybe everyone else realized you are trying to make other more mature friends than them? i don't know.
haha ok, thanks.
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