How could you ofer me love like that? My heart is burned.
You know what? Never mind.
I'm so over dragging myself through the mud and living the past over and over. I tired to forgive and let go but obviously you are not willing to. Keep your history, I release the past and move into the present, as the past contains only pain and sorrow, and has led me only to today.
I can't handle any more punishment or negative criticism, to be frank I've had more than enough, and I cant deal with any more. This is too much, I need to keep positive and get my self into a loving, tranquil state to care for this new state of being. Being punished for my mistakes just isn't part of that.
You, Onyx, Janine, Marissa and Matt all epitomize the saying" With friends like these, who needs enemies." You guys should all have a party and gossip about it together. I am ashamed to have considered you guys 'friends' and participated in the poison that is gossip. Shows just how sick and worthless I truly felt inside. I feel truly foolish for allowing myself to be duped into thinking any of you really loved or cared for me. Funny how things change when the money and the comfort go out the window. I am grateful to all of you for the lessons I learned, all of them harsh and eye opening in the end. I have been freed from delusion.
I have moved ON. I forgive myself. I have new friends and old ones who I passed over in favor of you and those mentioned above. Hopefully I can avoid taking these friends for granted, now that I realize the nature, behaviors and value of a true friend, the kind that is there for you when you need them. I think Ahren is one of those for you, hope you treasure that.
Frankly, I cant handle the embarrassment of facing all the people in your life you have no doubt complained to about me. Scapegoat me all you want, I'm done waiting for you to love me or to deem me good enough. I take your well wishes with a grain of salt, feels more like a punch in the stomach.
Hope you find what you want in life.
I'm so over dragging myself through the mud and living the past over and over. I tired to forgive and let go but obviously you are not willing to. Keep your history, I release the past and move into the present, as the past contains only pain and sorrow, and has led me only to today.
I can't handle any more punishment or negative criticism, to be frank I've had more than enough, and I cant deal with any more. This is too much, I need to keep positive and get my self into a loving, tranquil state to care for this new state of being. Being punished for my mistakes just isn't part of that.
You, Onyx, Janine, Marissa and Matt all epitomize the saying" With friends like these, who needs enemies." You guys should all have a party and gossip about it together. I am ashamed to have considered you guys 'friends' and participated in the poison that is gossip. Shows just how sick and worthless I truly felt inside. I feel truly foolish for allowing myself to be duped into thinking any of you really loved or cared for me. Funny how things change when the money and the comfort go out the window. I am grateful to all of you for the lessons I learned, all of them harsh and eye opening in the end. I have been freed from delusion.
I have moved ON. I forgive myself. I have new friends and old ones who I passed over in favor of you and those mentioned above. Hopefully I can avoid taking these friends for granted, now that I realize the nature, behaviors and value of a true friend, the kind that is there for you when you need them. I think Ahren is one of those for you, hope you treasure that.
Frankly, I cant handle the embarrassment of facing all the people in your life you have no doubt complained to about me. Scapegoat me all you want, I'm done waiting for you to love me or to deem me good enough. I take your well wishes with a grain of salt, feels more like a punch in the stomach.
Hope you find what you want in life.