"Your right turns make me so nervous that if I had a cigarette, I'd light it up!"-Mum
A lot has happened in the past few days, if I do say so myself.
Sunday: Collin and I went to the Italian Fest in Briar Hill. We got our palms read by a little Italian lady named Amelia and what she said was so scary. He and I were freaking out. She was right about everything...except the fact that I'm going to have two kids when I'm older. I never want kids. EVER.
Monday: MLE, C.Lo and I went bowling and I saw Kenny Kelso! Huzzah! We discussed a lot and all decided that if we don't get dates to homecoming, then it's just going to be us three. HOWEVER--a date would be lovely and it is encouraged that if you're a male between the ages of 15-18 that you ask me or Courtney or Emily. After bowling we just drove around with the bass turned allll the way up and these two guys who must have been at least 20 pulled by The Magic Car and did the little head nod. I felt so dumb because I was pulling my hair back into my "meatballs". We caught up with them again and they did the little head nod once more. Oh, they were postively YUMMY.
Tuesday: I went driving that morning with the instructor Bryan and all was well and good until I was going 33 in a 35 zone and some bitch decided to honk her horn and flip me off. No worries, though, because Bryan turned around and flipped her off. We drove through the ghetto and I got caught in the middle of the intersection during a funeral procession. Lovely. Finally I made it home and went driving again that night.
That afternoon, I got in a bit of a row with someone who won't be mentioned here. Things are better now but the only thing I ask of him is to just leave me alone for a while; I'd be a lot more happier that way.
TODAY! I babysat this morning and drove again tonight. I had the wierdest dream last night. It was a happy dream but at the same time it was sad...y'know? It was a dream that reminded me of all those happy times with this person and then I woke up and realized that I didn't have any of those anymore. I still feel as if things are unfinished and that even though I tried, there's really nothing I can do about it. Even if I were to fix it, would things be the same? 99.9% of my intution says that it wouldn't, yet it keeps screaming at me to call her and just see how she is. Some days I want to fix things, yet most days I don't because too many things have changed already and it seems almost impossible to turn back now. I always told myself not to give in, to just wait and see if they make a move and do something.
It's at this point where my intution tells me that thinking that way is complete rubbish.
Sunday: Collin and I went to the Italian Fest in Briar Hill. We got our palms read by a little Italian lady named Amelia and what she said was so scary. He and I were freaking out. She was right about everything...except the fact that I'm going to have two kids when I'm older. I never want kids. EVER.
Monday: MLE, C.Lo and I went bowling and I saw Kenny Kelso! Huzzah! We discussed a lot and all decided that if we don't get dates to homecoming, then it's just going to be us three. HOWEVER--a date would be lovely and it is encouraged that if you're a male between the ages of 15-18 that you ask me or Courtney or Emily. After bowling we just drove around with the bass turned allll the way up and these two guys who must have been at least 20 pulled by The Magic Car and did the little head nod. I felt so dumb because I was pulling my hair back into my "meatballs". We caught up with them again and they did the little head nod once more. Oh, they were postively YUMMY.
Tuesday: I went driving that morning with the instructor Bryan and all was well and good until I was going 33 in a 35 zone and some bitch decided to honk her horn and flip me off. No worries, though, because Bryan turned around and flipped her off. We drove through the ghetto and I got caught in the middle of the intersection during a funeral procession. Lovely. Finally I made it home and went driving again that night.
That afternoon, I got in a bit of a row with someone who won't be mentioned here. Things are better now but the only thing I ask of him is to just leave me alone for a while; I'd be a lot more happier that way.
TODAY! I babysat this morning and drove again tonight. I had the wierdest dream last night. It was a happy dream but at the same time it was sad...y'know? It was a dream that reminded me of all those happy times with this person and then I woke up and realized that I didn't have any of those anymore. I still feel as if things are unfinished and that even though I tried, there's really nothing I can do about it. Even if I were to fix it, would things be the same? 99.9% of my intution says that it wouldn't, yet it keeps screaming at me to call her and just see how she is. Some days I want to fix things, yet most days I don't because too many things have changed already and it seems almost impossible to turn back now. I always told myself not to give in, to just wait and see if they make a move and do something.
It's at this point where my intution tells me that thinking that way is complete rubbish.