Stay Positive, Girl
I really need to change my attitude. I've been so overwhelmed with grief and can feel myself starting to wallow about what I don't have, when I need to just accept that this is reality and the only way to live is to let go and move on. This is all just so much uneccesary suffering attached to the grief I feel: all the stories I tell myself, wallowing in the memories, trying to find a way to make it different... always looking for ways to change how this moment really is.
I need change. I need to dive into life and strip away all these attachments and fears and fucking live. I can be free and happy right here, right now. It's in my hands. I know I get caught up in all this sadness, but I also know I come out of it passionate about life and thankful for what I do have.
I think I'm going to stop seeing my therapist. I'm going to talk with her about it tomorrow. I just don't feel like I'm getting a lot out of it anymore. I just go there and vent about the same thing, over and over again. Even in our last session I said, "I don't know what I'm doing here anymore." I'm looking into finding someone new, or just taking a break for a while. I know I have more work to do in therapy, but I just don't think the therapist I've had for almost three years is a good match for the work I need to do.
Yes, this is me... bringing on change. It's in my hands.
I need change. I need to dive into life and strip away all these attachments and fears and fucking live. I can be free and happy right here, right now. It's in my hands. I know I get caught up in all this sadness, but I also know I come out of it passionate about life and thankful for what I do have.
I think I'm going to stop seeing my therapist. I'm going to talk with her about it tomorrow. I just don't feel like I'm getting a lot out of it anymore. I just go there and vent about the same thing, over and over again. Even in our last session I said, "I don't know what I'm doing here anymore." I'm looking into finding someone new, or just taking a break for a while. I know I have more work to do in therapy, but I just don't think the therapist I've had for almost three years is a good match for the work I need to do.
Yes, this is me... bringing on change. It's in my hands.