Not read's this and that's fine.
I'm pretty sure I update this for myself. I know no one really reads it, which is fine. It's not poetic, it's not clever, it's not very interesting, in fact this is probably pretty boring. Again, I'm fine with that. I never claimed to be a poet. ANYWAYS....back to the real reason I'm posting. Oy...things are so damned confusing right now. I hate this middle stage between breaking up. Well...actually...I don't think I've ever really experienced this quite before, but this sucks. I hate trying to hold on to something that I'm not even sure is worth holding onto. This is all so messy and I just want to get on with my life and live and stop being so hung up on this whole thing. I feel like I know we're suppose to be together and at the same time this is all happening and that of course is making me question that feeling but at the same time I think if we're meant to be together it can still happen but perhaps months or years from now. Ugh. How annoying. I am so annoyed with myself. I wish there was a "feelings" switch in the back of my neck that I could just switch off. Off off off. Woof. Fuck this.