Your such a sexy penguin!
"For
once I want to be the one that makes the players fall. I want to be the
girl who made him change his all. For once I want to be the girl who
got him to quit his game, retire his jersey, and draw hearts around my name."
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<<< That one reminds me of Dakota... He's always saying that. *shrugs*
Along with this one:
And only because he said it's one of his favorite songs. And we listened to it together the first time he was here. ::Nods:: yup yup
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Okay.. now on to why I'm really updating AGAIN today....
I've been thinking lately. About everything.
Was I really right in getting into this relationship just a few short weeks after a 6 month relationship break~up?
That, I may add I'm not over at all? Now, don't get me wrong, I like Dakota, a lot. Maybe even enough to say I really love him, he's said it to me but is he just saying that because I'm his first girlfriend and he wants to hang on to that regardless of wether it's true? I don't want to be one of those girls that get into another relationship right away just to get over their ex's. That is not why I am with Dakota now! I really like him. I have for a while. Even before I was with Mike if you want me to be honest. But once I was with Mike I only had eyes for him and once that was over I realized I had just been pushing back and burying those feelings for Dakota.
GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! WHY am I even going into this? Yes, it's true sometimes (okay lately alot) all I think about is this but the majority of the time I know I'm truely happy with Dakota. No one's ever been this sweet, kind, understanding.....*Believe it or not guys, THAT'S what a girl wants*....especially not towards someone like me. I know, we've all heard it before "I don't deserve him." And it gets old. But in all honesty, I'm such a jealous brat when it comes to relationships that I don't deserve someone who puts up with me like Dakota does. If I were to ever do something that would hurt him, I'd kill myself or worse. And it'd be in the worst possible way.
Geez.. listen to me go on and on about how I'm not sure it's such a great idea to I'll kill myself and I don't deserve him... pathetic huh?
Well, my day was even more pathetic.
Woke up at 1:30 with a temp. of 101.7, popped some pills and went back to bed. Woke up with a normal temp. this morning. Layed around all day and got forgotten by my own family. Seriously.
They all took off without letting me know and when they came back they all had icecream.
Love you too.
Thier excuse?
"You weren't dressed yet." Like it takes a friggin' day to put on a pair of pants and a shirt?
Talked to Jeriann and Carrie today. Jeriann helped a lot. We were on the phone for almost an hour. Then, I got off the phone, listened to music and a sad song that brought back a ton of great memories that I'll never have a chance to relive came on and I cryed throughout the whole song.
I haven't eatten yet today either. Well actually I tryed eatting a chicken wing but it just made me want to throw up. And I'm not in the mood to try and eat again.
Like I said, pathetic day...
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<<< That one reminds me of Dakota... He's always saying that. *shrugs*
Along with this one:
And only because he said it's one of his favorite songs. And we listened to it together the first time he was here. ::Nods:: yup yup
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Okay.. now on to why I'm really updating AGAIN today....
I've been thinking lately. About everything.
Was I really right in getting into this relationship just a few short weeks after a 6 month relationship break~up?
That, I may add I'm not over at all? Now, don't get me wrong, I like Dakota, a lot. Maybe even enough to say I really love him, he's said it to me but is he just saying that because I'm his first girlfriend and he wants to hang on to that regardless of wether it's true? I don't want to be one of those girls that get into another relationship right away just to get over their ex's. That is not why I am with Dakota now! I really like him. I have for a while. Even before I was with Mike if you want me to be honest. But once I was with Mike I only had eyes for him and once that was over I realized I had just been pushing back and burying those feelings for Dakota.
GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! WHY am I even going into this? Yes, it's true sometimes (okay lately alot) all I think about is this but the majority of the time I know I'm truely happy with Dakota. No one's ever been this sweet, kind, understanding.....*Believe it or not guys, THAT'S what a girl wants*....especially not towards someone like me. I know, we've all heard it before "I don't deserve him." And it gets old. But in all honesty, I'm such a jealous brat when it comes to relationships that I don't deserve someone who puts up with me like Dakota does. If I were to ever do something that would hurt him, I'd kill myself or worse. And it'd be in the worst possible way.
Geez.. listen to me go on and on about how I'm not sure it's such a great idea to I'll kill myself and I don't deserve him... pathetic huh?
Well, my day was even more pathetic.
Woke up at 1:30 with a temp. of 101.7, popped some pills and went back to bed. Woke up with a normal temp. this morning. Layed around all day and got forgotten by my own family. Seriously.
They all took off without letting me know and when they came back they all had icecream.
Love you too.
Thier excuse?
"You weren't dressed yet." Like it takes a friggin' day to put on a pair of pants and a shirt?
Talked to Jeriann and Carrie today. Jeriann helped a lot. We were on the phone for almost an hour. Then, I got off the phone, listened to music and a sad song that brought back a ton of great memories that I'll never have a chance to relive came on and I cryed throughout the whole song.
I haven't eatten yet today either. Well actually I tryed eatting a chicken wing but it just made me want to throw up. And I'm not in the mood to try and eat again.
Like I said, pathetic day...