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I had this disturbing dream today, where I kept being startled by shouting from this very loud, very rude, and apparently very drunk man.  In bed I would be dozing off when he would scream something loud and offensive and I would startle awake, heart pounding, stomach twisting, nervous, anxious reaction.  It all seemed very real when I would settle

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Have you had a dream like that?

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Have you ever killed anyone?

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Why?

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It was self defense. Do you feel bad about it?

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Why sort of?

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Yeah, I understand that, but he was going to kill you! He didn't think of you as a person, just as someone to destroy. It sucks that he was like that but it wasn't your fault. Frankly I'm glad you're the one still around.

Me? No. Well, I don't think so. Things were kind of weird when I was growing up.

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Anyone who does I would be a little worried about.

My father was a preacher, a minster, raise your Bible lay hands on people kind of preacher. You are SAVED by the healing power of Christ, yes, feel his blood and holy oil anoint you and wash that pain away. That kind of preacher. He was convinced that I could heal, that I had some special kind of connection - Lord knows what. I remember old women, men, young children who would pray all day. Weep, twitch on the floor seized by the holy spirit, screaming out to be healed. A lot of screaming. A lot of crying.

I wonder how many of those people would have lived if they went to a doctor instead of us.

Testify. I babble.

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Really? Well you said feral so maybe. But do you really think they can't help themselves?

Yeah, it can be really intense. I never knew if he was for reals or just in it for the power.

If I wasn't there, if he wasn't there they wouldn't have had that option.

Me? Pasha, no.