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today was really rough, its 1:30 in the am and im still not sleeping, i need to be up at 4am to go back to work....
i feel so vacant lately.
tonight as i was driving home i became consumed with everything going on, the lack of money i have the lack of boys in my life, the rent that needs to be paid, and with everything on my mind i passed my exit off the highway and ended up in township...
luckily i knew where i was. i took some back roads home, lit a cig, and turned up the cat power. i focused in on everything around me as i rested my head on my hand. i was driving through corn fields but it wasn't until i looked up at the stars that i started feeling sentimental about andrew. it sucks he just dropped off the face of the earth but its not like people didn't warn me...
Other Andrew called me. i don't understand why he thinks he can just call me and pretend like nothing has happened. i dont know what to say to him, im not sure i even have anything to say to him. part of me misses having him around, but majorily most of me is still turned off by the whole weekend he spent with me and everything that happened.
i am in disarray...
i feel so vacant lately.
tonight as i was driving home i became consumed with everything going on, the lack of money i have the lack of boys in my life, the rent that needs to be paid, and with everything on my mind i passed my exit off the highway and ended up in township...
luckily i knew where i was. i took some back roads home, lit a cig, and turned up the cat power. i focused in on everything around me as i rested my head on my hand. i was driving through corn fields but it wasn't until i looked up at the stars that i started feeling sentimental about andrew. it sucks he just dropped off the face of the earth but its not like people didn't warn me...
Other Andrew called me. i don't understand why he thinks he can just call me and pretend like nothing has happened. i dont know what to say to him, im not sure i even have anything to say to him. part of me misses having him around, but majorily most of me is still turned off by the whole weekend he spent with me and everything that happened.
i am in disarray...