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today i was driving to my apartment office to officially sign the lease for our new place, i passed a bar and i thought to myself "soon enough," i thought about how i would be turning 20 in september, and wait a min, im turning 19...wtf. i realized in so many ways my birthdays have been confused on a certain level so i always feel a year older to the point i believe i am. i seriously thought hard about how i was turning 20, i feel 20, i act 20, i swear that a year is missing out of my life. i feel like a year is missing somewhere, blacked out and lost, yet still very preeminent in everything i do.
i think i also tend to rely on romance far more than i should. im not sure what it is in my life that leads me directly to it but when its there its amazing. and when its gone, its oh so gone. i think i've had enough perfect little moments in my life where i know what love feels like, and a few really big ones where i am reminded i really know.
i think i also tend to rely on romance far more than i should. im not sure what it is in my life that leads me directly to it but when its there its amazing. and when its gone, its oh so gone. i think i've had enough perfect little moments in my life where i know what love feels like, and a few really big ones where i am reminded i really know.