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I like
Vibrancy
Surprises
spontaneous quests
hand holding, swaying as you walk
Moving hair out of eyes and kissing neck
Leaving together
Paying attention to moods, slight differences in expression
Kissing in public without you looking over your shoulder
Giggling and talking honestly, secluded for a minute at a party
No indecision
Time, your time, my time
Studying together,
Reading together,
having our morning tea together.
Something in the eye when other people are around.
Notes and letters
And emails
And telephone conversations.
You wanting to be around me, more than anyone else, sometimes.
A comfort in your hug.
The perfect shape of your kisses
Playing board games
Watching old movies
Running around downtown, used bookstores.
You are:
Oblivious
a puzzle
my mind game
concerned with other things
somewhere where I can't reach you
afraid to be honest with me
afraid to make the first move any further
concious of what other think
trying to uphold a standard of character when people are looking
filthy on the inside, in your mind.
A constant studier
Ungiving, unnoticing, unleaving, uninterested in your eyes.
hurting me with your small dismissals
scratching me with your brittle affection
bruising me with your need for secrecy.
Not very much of that list above
I am
Afraid to talk to you
unknowing of what you like
a stranger to you
Afraid to knock on your door
Afraid to be too much
a letter writer
a gift giver
a sensitive prat
tuned to your feelings
Bothered by your methods.
Squelched by the battle of confusion that roars inside your head.
I want
your affections
your soft touch
unadaultered appreciation
to stop waiting
to grow with you, and learn
to know what you're thinking
Simplicity
lying in bed in the morning
strolling in the forrest outside
kisses in the sunlight
hand over smooth skin
comfort in nudity
sharing of secrets
airing of insecurities.
to talk to you when I'm unhappy
to be there if the world crushes you
sharing cereal
and discovering cafes
and loud talking
and involvement.
Maybe I want a fucking fairy tale, but don't I deserve better than to be on your backburner? On your to do list as a task or a thought at the back of your mind?
I want passion, I want perversion, I want honesty, and descovery.
I'm seeing a straight chick with a boyfriend who lives far away and she's driving me mad. She lives on the same floor as I do in residence, but I hardly see her. And her actions are starting to effect my frame of mind. I feel more insecure, down sometimes, and I don't know quite what to do with myself.
Vibrancy
Surprises
spontaneous quests
hand holding, swaying as you walk
Moving hair out of eyes and kissing neck
Leaving together
Paying attention to moods, slight differences in expression
Kissing in public without you looking over your shoulder
Giggling and talking honestly, secluded for a minute at a party
No indecision
Time, your time, my time
Studying together,
Reading together,
having our morning tea together.
Something in the eye when other people are around.
Notes and letters
And emails
And telephone conversations.
You wanting to be around me, more than anyone else, sometimes.
A comfort in your hug.
The perfect shape of your kisses
Playing board games
Watching old movies
Running around downtown, used bookstores.
You are:
Oblivious
a puzzle
my mind game
concerned with other things
somewhere where I can't reach you
afraid to be honest with me
afraid to make the first move any further
concious of what other think
trying to uphold a standard of character when people are looking
filthy on the inside, in your mind.
A constant studier
Ungiving, unnoticing, unleaving, uninterested in your eyes.
hurting me with your small dismissals
scratching me with your brittle affection
bruising me with your need for secrecy.
Not very much of that list above
I am
Afraid to talk to you
unknowing of what you like
a stranger to you
Afraid to knock on your door
Afraid to be too much
a letter writer
a gift giver
a sensitive prat
tuned to your feelings
Bothered by your methods.
Squelched by the battle of confusion that roars inside your head.
I want
your affections
your soft touch
unadaultered appreciation
to stop waiting
to grow with you, and learn
to know what you're thinking
Simplicity
lying in bed in the morning
strolling in the forrest outside
kisses in the sunlight
hand over smooth skin
comfort in nudity
sharing of secrets
airing of insecurities.
to talk to you when I'm unhappy
to be there if the world crushes you
sharing cereal
and discovering cafes
and loud talking
and involvement.
Maybe I want a fucking fairy tale, but don't I deserve better than to be on your backburner? On your to do list as a task or a thought at the back of your mind?
I want passion, I want perversion, I want honesty, and descovery.
I'm seeing a straight chick with a boyfriend who lives far away and she's driving me mad. She lives on the same floor as I do in residence, but I hardly see her. And her actions are starting to effect my frame of mind. I feel more insecure, down sometimes, and I don't know quite what to do with myself.