Starting Fresh

[strangelove_aeg]

In the early hours of Monday morning, I decided I could no longer take it. John was treating just well enough to get what he wanted from me. He had this habit of really making an effort to show his supposed caring side to reel me back in, but would start treating me poorly when he felt secure. It all pointed to him just taking advantage of my kindness and affection for him. He finally admitted he was mostly in it for the nookie and basically that was that. I'm not going to sit around waiting for him to treat me like I deserve. My time will come. Being free of John opens doors for me. I'm still in touch with the good guy. I sent him a message saying I was in need of a hug. He's got this impossible class schedule, but took a quick moment to call me and cheer me up, promising a real live hug as soon as possible. I slept better last night knowing that there are still good guys out there, even if he ends up as just a friend. The really good news is that I finished the paper that's due Thursday. All I have to worry about is the test for my online class. I'm pretty relaxed about that. I've been studying all along for the most part.

Then there is one other thing. Two things actually. My new assignment at work includes the use of a cubicle. The privacy is kind of nice, but I miss my window and all the people passing by. It's cool though. Also, I got my brow pierced on Friday and it seemed to be healing well. Then I woke up yesterday and it was noticeably swollen and by last night there was some bruising. I'm trying to be gentle with it now. It looks like I got in a fight! Anyway, I need to get ready for work. I am cutting corners by not shaving my legs. He he. That is one advantage to not seeing anybody. I can slum it for a while. Honestly, do guys really know all we go through to look appealing to them? Pfft!