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So, Spring Break has come to an end, and here I am sitting in my pj's and watching wrestling with my sister.
My break was fun, at times. Heh........
Well, I was informed by my aunt that I must get rid of my dog. She said that my mom has no say in the matter and if I don't get rid of him, she will. stupidmotherfuckingdumbassbitch. My Dad said he will come and get him until I have my own place. Thank God for Fathers. (Lord, I never thought I'd say that.)
I have something to say, and if you can figure it out, then you deserve to know:
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Some songs now.
i let myself fall into a lie
i let my walls come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down
no matter how i try i don't know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you
i can't believe the way you took me down
i never saw the pain
coming in a million broken miles
like poison in my veins
[chorus]
the hate and the fear
the nightmares that wake me up
in the tears
the nightmares and (the hate)...
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some days are better, they're better than others
can't run forever, you're pushing me under
what a way to live my life
i'm hiding from the battles i don't want to fight
what i've become
and now it's going grey
all the lines are blurring and decayed
i can't recall exactly who's to blame..... anymore
is it me or is it you , something isn't right
of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
someday i will find the courage to embrace you
someday i will find the strength to erase you
some days i think i'm nothing without you
sometimes i wish that i could just kill you
what a way we live our lives
it's hard to breathe
it feels like i'm infected by my dad's disease
and now it's going grey
and you're the one i chose to feed me pain
and i'm the one you bring home so ashamed.....through their eyes
[chorus]
and i see myself in heaven
if i can free myself from this hell