I emerge to speak of RL
So I've sucked hard at RL and internet life. I've been trying to write for over a year now, and I just can't do it. It's not that I don't have ideas - whoah boy there are a lot floating about in my head - but I just can't find the words for them. I have tonnes of random paragraphs and plans all over the place but once I've written them down, the spark just goes out of it.
I wonder if it's because pretty much 80% of the time I no longer think/speak in English. My Japanese is not very good, but when almost everything in your life operates around another language, you have to think in a different kind of way. Unfortunately, I have to think in a pretty logical and grammatical way with Japanese so my prose has suffered badly.
Maybe I expect too much? I guess this is the issue of reading other people's writing and it being so good - of course you're going to compare it to what you produce. Some people can step away from that but I have yet to learn to do this.
But on top of that, I just feel like any kind of artistic ability has been sucked away from me by the gaping hole of REAL LIFE.
I decided that after July, I would leave Japan. I've been here nearly 2 years and it has been a hell of a ride, but I'm ready to get off now. Except... I feel like I should spend the rest of my life floating around the world because otherwise, I'm going to have to go back the UK and become a teacher. That's ok for some people, but it's really not want I want to do with my life.
BUH RL has the horrible habit of weighing down on your dreams.
Soooo... if anyone has any advice? Or somethingsomething...
I wonder if it's because pretty much 80% of the time I no longer think/speak in English. My Japanese is not very good, but when almost everything in your life operates around another language, you have to think in a different kind of way. Unfortunately, I have to think in a pretty logical and grammatical way with Japanese so my prose has suffered badly.
Maybe I expect too much? I guess this is the issue of reading other people's writing and it being so good - of course you're going to compare it to what you produce. Some people can step away from that but I have yet to learn to do this.
But on top of that, I just feel like any kind of artistic ability has been sucked away from me by the gaping hole of REAL LIFE.
I decided that after July, I would leave Japan. I've been here nearly 2 years and it has been a hell of a ride, but I'm ready to get off now. Except... I feel like I should spend the rest of my life floating around the world because otherwise, I'm going to have to go back the UK and become a teacher. That's ok for some people, but it's really not want I want to do with my life.
BUH RL has the horrible habit of weighing down on your dreams.
Soooo... if anyone has any advice? Or somethingsomething...