grasping
I've realised something that i do, whenever i find something exciting, inspiring or enjoyable:
I grasp at it, trying to hold on to that mood or inspiration for as long as i can. I try to read things in keeping with it, watch videos or listen to music that fit the mood, make screen savers of images on my computer at work, anything to capture and continue the feeling.
I obsess over the idea until it becomes stale and worn out then try to keep it going past its use-by date. Other things that might capture my imagination and create new moods i resist, in trying to hold on to the moment that's passed.
I think this is another area where i need to learn not to be so attached, to embrace things that move me without becoming totally absorbed in them, enjoy them as they rise and fall, then let go as they pass and embrace the next moment, partake in the things that interest me instead of being defined by one.
Again, another one of these Buddhist ideas makes sense of something close to home.
I grasp at it, trying to hold on to that mood or inspiration for as long as i can. I try to read things in keeping with it, watch videos or listen to music that fit the mood, make screen savers of images on my computer at work, anything to capture and continue the feeling.
I obsess over the idea until it becomes stale and worn out then try to keep it going past its use-by date. Other things that might capture my imagination and create new moods i resist, in trying to hold on to the moment that's passed.
I think this is another area where i need to learn not to be so attached, to embrace things that move me without becoming totally absorbed in them, enjoy them as they rise and fall, then let go as they pass and embrace the next moment, partake in the things that interest me instead of being defined by one.
Again, another one of these Buddhist ideas makes sense of something close to home.