So many friggin movies...
Ok, so I'm still home even though I should be back in New Paltz working, and the truth is I woke up at 730 this morning, packed and went to wait for the express bus to the city. The bus never came, and I wasn't goin to make the early bus back to New Paltz in which case I would have missed most if not all of work, so I thought to myself...why rush back if I'm gonna miss work anyway? So, I stood in today and am goin back to NP tonight after dinner, which makes me happy because I liked spendin time with most of my family members this weekend. Plus, one more home cooked meal couldn't hurt.
So I had a great weekend home, which wasn';t too relaxing, but not too crazy. Alot different than the always crazy life I and everyone else who is workin and performing in NP seem to lead. Friday when I got home I went shopping for my brothers engagement party, afterwhich I came home, finished reading "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" which I loved so much I seemed to have finished it in one day. (First time I've read a book in one day...yay for me growing, lol). Then I went to the city and went to "Pop-Burger", this awesome bar/club thing that my brothers friend, a friend we've known my entire life at least, DJ's at, therefore getting me in without even a question of my age. It's awesome when I go out with them. I'm always in NP which is such a small town and the local bars are nice but not exactly what I enjoy (at least nmot yet), so coming home and going to a city club full of very attractive city people makes me feel good. Well, until the night continues and realize that I am a pussy. Yep, that bluntly, I'm a pussy. I have no balls when it comes to women, and it's starting to piss me off. There were these two very attractive girls at the bar and they were looking at me and giggling like girls who have a bit of alcohol seem to do at cute boys (or boys they think are cute because of alcohol) and I was looking at them, looking for some opening to go talk, and of course I didn't. I thought about it for way way way too long and it never happened, and I ended up being pissed at myself. It's something I find myself doing over and over again. I'm not sure if I put this in an entry a while ago, but someone told me rather ecently that he wanted to "start getting turned down by beautiful women". I heard that when he said it, but I just can't seem to make it take effect. Even girls that I've had insignificant crushes on for like weeks, I don't even give them a hint or a clue, unless they figure it out themselves, and even then I just act like it's not there and never even get the chance to get turned down. What a boring life that is, huh?
So that was on my mind most of the weekend, but Saturday night was non-the-less, fun! My family was all together and although there were skeletons present, I had a great time and have some great pictures. Alot with me and my brothers, which I think is awesome cause with my new digital camera, I have all pics of my friends, and non of my family. But now I have plenty, with us in our suites. What was also great for once was my brothers telling me how great I looked. My suite was this tan/off-white color and I wore an orange shirt underneath with a flower, but very inconspiquous tie. It looked like something Brad Pitt might have worn in Ocean's 11. Liz cae with me as my date, and as usual we had a great time. We went back to her house afterwards and we talked...alot. And as much as that sentence sounded like it was something I didn't enjoy, it was exactly what I needed. We spoke about each other and ideas we have and plans for the future and just talked and sort of got to know each other just a bit more. People don't know it, but she's one of the most important people in my life, and they don't know it becauae they don't understand out relationship. Truth is I love Liz, and I tell her all the time. I'm not in love with her, and that's another factor of our friendship. We could never be together cause we would kill each other, but the way we are is perfect, and it seems to be stable. I hope it stays that way, she helped me sort out some stuff that night. I hope I'm there for her the way she's there for me.
So yesterday I was tired, with the drinking on friday night, and the drinkin on saturday night I was exhausted, but at 6ish, me and my family went to my aunts where we lounged around and then had a cake for my cousins B-day. It was nice, but what was cool was my cousin Frankie and his G?F ionvited me to the movies afterwards to see I, Robot. It was an alright movie. I think if you look for it, you can find something to think about after it's over, but it was no Igby Goes Down (which I watched the other day). The reason I thought them inviting me was cool was because Frankie used to come out with me and Cathy once in a while and I liked it cause I got to spend time with him and my g/f. Last night it was his turn and I was proud that he managed to balance the company so well. I had a good time and didn't feel uncomfortable at all. Geez, getting older is so wierd sometimes.
So today, I missed the bus as I said, and I watched/fell asleep too...
Bowling for Columbine (watched and it was great)
Sinbad (animated well, fell asleep to it though, boring)
Bruce Almighty (Morgan Freeman and Jim Carey mopping the floor; one of my fav. movie moments.)
Alex & Emma (intresting enough to enjoy, cliche' enough to make me sick, lol)
Ok, this is definately the longest entry ever, so I am retiring my live journal for the evening. For those in NP, i'll see you soon, and I hope you missed me this weekend as I missed you, and for those home I didn't see, next weekend I'm home and not as busy...call me ;)
-Nick
So I had a great weekend home, which wasn';t too relaxing, but not too crazy. Alot different than the always crazy life I and everyone else who is workin and performing in NP seem to lead. Friday when I got home I went shopping for my brothers engagement party, afterwhich I came home, finished reading "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" which I loved so much I seemed to have finished it in one day. (First time I've read a book in one day...yay for me growing, lol). Then I went to the city and went to "Pop-Burger", this awesome bar/club thing that my brothers friend, a friend we've known my entire life at least, DJ's at, therefore getting me in without even a question of my age. It's awesome when I go out with them. I'm always in NP which is such a small town and the local bars are nice but not exactly what I enjoy (at least nmot yet), so coming home and going to a city club full of very attractive city people makes me feel good. Well, until the night continues and realize that I am a pussy. Yep, that bluntly, I'm a pussy. I have no balls when it comes to women, and it's starting to piss me off. There were these two very attractive girls at the bar and they were looking at me and giggling like girls who have a bit of alcohol seem to do at cute boys (or boys they think are cute because of alcohol) and I was looking at them, looking for some opening to go talk, and of course I didn't. I thought about it for way way way too long and it never happened, and I ended up being pissed at myself. It's something I find myself doing over and over again. I'm not sure if I put this in an entry a while ago, but someone told me rather ecently that he wanted to "start getting turned down by beautiful women". I heard that when he said it, but I just can't seem to make it take effect. Even girls that I've had insignificant crushes on for like weeks, I don't even give them a hint or a clue, unless they figure it out themselves, and even then I just act like it's not there and never even get the chance to get turned down. What a boring life that is, huh?
So that was on my mind most of the weekend, but Saturday night was non-the-less, fun! My family was all together and although there were skeletons present, I had a great time and have some great pictures. Alot with me and my brothers, which I think is awesome cause with my new digital camera, I have all pics of my friends, and non of my family. But now I have plenty, with us in our suites. What was also great for once was my brothers telling me how great I looked. My suite was this tan/off-white color and I wore an orange shirt underneath with a flower, but very inconspiquous tie. It looked like something Brad Pitt might have worn in Ocean's 11. Liz cae with me as my date, and as usual we had a great time. We went back to her house afterwards and we talked...alot. And as much as that sentence sounded like it was something I didn't enjoy, it was exactly what I needed. We spoke about each other and ideas we have and plans for the future and just talked and sort of got to know each other just a bit more. People don't know it, but she's one of the most important people in my life, and they don't know it becauae they don't understand out relationship. Truth is I love Liz, and I tell her all the time. I'm not in love with her, and that's another factor of our friendship. We could never be together cause we would kill each other, but the way we are is perfect, and it seems to be stable. I hope it stays that way, she helped me sort out some stuff that night. I hope I'm there for her the way she's there for me.
So yesterday I was tired, with the drinking on friday night, and the drinkin on saturday night I was exhausted, but at 6ish, me and my family went to my aunts where we lounged around and then had a cake for my cousins B-day. It was nice, but what was cool was my cousin Frankie and his G?F ionvited me to the movies afterwards to see I, Robot. It was an alright movie. I think if you look for it, you can find something to think about after it's over, but it was no Igby Goes Down (which I watched the other day). The reason I thought them inviting me was cool was because Frankie used to come out with me and Cathy once in a while and I liked it cause I got to spend time with him and my g/f. Last night it was his turn and I was proud that he managed to balance the company so well. I had a good time and didn't feel uncomfortable at all. Geez, getting older is so wierd sometimes.
So today, I missed the bus as I said, and I watched/fell asleep too...
Bowling for Columbine (watched and it was great)
Sinbad (animated well, fell asleep to it though, boring)
Bruce Almighty (Morgan Freeman and Jim Carey mopping the floor; one of my fav. movie moments.)
Alex & Emma (intresting enough to enjoy, cliche' enough to make me sick, lol)
Ok, this is definately the longest entry ever, so I am retiring my live journal for the evening. For those in NP, i'll see you soon, and I hope you missed me this weekend as I missed you, and for those home I didn't see, next weekend I'm home and not as busy...call me ;)
-Nick