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Well. I havent updated in a long time, due to mostly business, but everytime i think about it i dont know what to write. since my last post, the highlights i guess would be the following:
A) Rock the Universe & meeting matt hoopes & having one of the most awesomely fun times
B) Actually gonna go to homecoming now. baker asked me & after consideration & conversing w /olivia decided to go. i think it will be fun & got a pretty black dress already. my only concern is that it might be akward since we're going w/ only couples & baker & i arent dating or anything, but hopefully everything will be cool.
i think thats pretty much it. lol see what i mean by nothing to say.
i feel like i cant even articulate my emotions either anymore, kinda like i'm just so busy & everything its a lot easier to just suppress them & go about my life, but at nights, when im laying there wide awake, sometimes i cant control the thoughts from racing through my head, and simply organizing them can take forever. usually i just thin kabout my schedule and what i have to do when and the future, etc. then something scary will happen like while im thinking about all this something like-"im scared about the future" "can i do things on my own in less than 2 years" "can i really accomplish everything i want to in my life" and it completely throws me off, and inhibits my rationale. sigh, thats probably why i enjoy being busy, too much time on your hands can lead to-and yes i will admit it-overthinking things, but on the contary i wonder what the consequence of never thinking about your emotions and constantly ignoring them is? guess we'll find out...
A) Rock the Universe & meeting matt hoopes & having one of the most awesomely fun times
B) Actually gonna go to homecoming now. baker asked me & after consideration & conversing w /olivia decided to go. i think it will be fun & got a pretty black dress already. my only concern is that it might be akward since we're going w/ only couples & baker & i arent dating or anything, but hopefully everything will be cool.
i think thats pretty much it. lol see what i mean by nothing to say.
i feel like i cant even articulate my emotions either anymore, kinda like i'm just so busy & everything its a lot easier to just suppress them & go about my life, but at nights, when im laying there wide awake, sometimes i cant control the thoughts from racing through my head, and simply organizing them can take forever. usually i just thin kabout my schedule and what i have to do when and the future, etc. then something scary will happen like while im thinking about all this something like-"im scared about the future" "can i do things on my own in less than 2 years" "can i really accomplish everything i want to in my life" and it completely throws me off, and inhibits my rationale. sigh, thats probably why i enjoy being busy, too much time on your hands can lead to-and yes i will admit it-overthinking things, but on the contary i wonder what the consequence of never thinking about your emotions and constantly ignoring them is? guess we'll find out...