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you know i think im just about stressed out to the max. not only do i have to worry about my grades, car insurance going sky high, and work.. but NOW my fucking CAR brakes down AGAIN! what the hell why cant shit just go right in my life for once. it seems like nothing can ever just be good. GAH. then like my grandparents and dad cant even be happy that a college might want me. ALL THEY FUCKIN WANT IS ME TO STAY IN THIS SHIT WHOLE OF A FUCKIN PLACE FOREVER!!!! gah i mean i am so happy that a college somewhere other than this damn place might want me. theyve sent me 3 applications in the past month asking me to apply. i mean what the hell. why cant they just be happy. people need to grow up and move on with there lives they cant always be held back. i dont want to live here forever. i dont want to be around half the people that live here all my life. so what, my dad grew up here big fucking deal. I DONT WANNA BE STUCK HERE FOREVER. and i tried to tell them that and they just gave me all this shit about how i wont be able to afford shit. gah im so pissed off and then theres the whole car shit.. MY OIL LEAK WASNT FUCKING FIXED AFTER ALL! wtf there goes my damn engine and fucking 2 grand. might as well kiss the car goodbye. gah nothing ever fucking goes right. might as well shoot me now. and to top everything off no car = having to quit my job. I LOVE THAT JOB. im so pissed off im just gunna go to bed.