I know you guys are tired of these posts, but bear with me.
"You let me go, how did i let you down?
thoughts melts with passion, hair of gold caught in mind
empty words forever heard... sincerity?
everything is so new it hurts
let me know when its broken again
you were the best thing that has never happened to me
continue, to bludgeon me to death
was i pleasure i felt, in your hands?
as you wrap them around my neck
since this death was not in vain, will it all remain the same?
i cant understand it
or will it crumble to an unhealthy feeling of pain
ripped my heart out, and gave it back to me
because everything by now should mean everything, everything to you
but in the end you were just raping me of all my love
I finally see whats happening, why did it have to come to this?
You were right, and i was wrong
And this is where we stand today, do you think that we can mend these wounds?
Or is the pain too much to bear?
Do you understand, that this will be the death of me?
this was my beginning.
my change
my catalyst..."
Ok, I understand you guys are tired of seeing my last posts just me being depressed. Im tired of it to, so this is the last one. So im going to get the last things off my chest. Then we are moving on K?
Long song, I know you guys dont like to read but it really means something. Most of you should know it from the old Saila days, but I was jammin in my car to the new mix CD and this one came along and I started singing. And after singing, i started to think about it...
The reason I find myself in this depression state is, I guess, because of how it happened. I have gone through losin her twice, with the last one it was decided to be friends. I'm very happy though that we are actually friends. But its been tough for me to remove the feelings for her.
It just takes something simple: a thought, seeing a picture of her, hearing about friends relationships, even sometimes just talking to her. It reminds me of what I had, and what I cant have, and thats when I get deperessed. Sometimes I wish that this whole thing never happened, because I can honostly say I loved her like no other girl before.
Oh well right? thats life...So thanks again to you guys who have dealt with me being pissy/moody for the past couple of weeks. And thanks to you guys for reading this. Lastly thanks to a girl named Sydney for keeping me busy and always calling to talk.
Ok so in other news, theres some good AMC drama going around. I'd love to quit right now but I cannot find another job. Either the places arent hiring or they pay lower than what i make. Im getting my tattos designed currently, and getting them in June. Next concert is Farewell To Twilight on June 4th, and its gonna be sick.
Like I said, no more bitchin, you guys rule.
XmarkX
thoughts melts with passion, hair of gold caught in mind
empty words forever heard... sincerity?
everything is so new it hurts
let me know when its broken again
you were the best thing that has never happened to me
continue, to bludgeon me to death
was i pleasure i felt, in your hands?
as you wrap them around my neck
since this death was not in vain, will it all remain the same?
i cant understand it
or will it crumble to an unhealthy feeling of pain
ripped my heart out, and gave it back to me
because everything by now should mean everything, everything to you
but in the end you were just raping me of all my love
I finally see whats happening, why did it have to come to this?
You were right, and i was wrong
And this is where we stand today, do you think that we can mend these wounds?
Or is the pain too much to bear?
Do you understand, that this will be the death of me?
this was my beginning.
my change
my catalyst..."
Ok, I understand you guys are tired of seeing my last posts just me being depressed. Im tired of it to, so this is the last one. So im going to get the last things off my chest. Then we are moving on K?
Long song, I know you guys dont like to read but it really means something. Most of you should know it from the old Saila days, but I was jammin in my car to the new mix CD and this one came along and I started singing. And after singing, i started to think about it...
The reason I find myself in this depression state is, I guess, because of how it happened. I have gone through losin her twice, with the last one it was decided to be friends. I'm very happy though that we are actually friends. But its been tough for me to remove the feelings for her.
It just takes something simple: a thought, seeing a picture of her, hearing about friends relationships, even sometimes just talking to her. It reminds me of what I had, and what I cant have, and thats when I get deperessed. Sometimes I wish that this whole thing never happened, because I can honostly say I loved her like no other girl before.
Oh well right? thats life...So thanks again to you guys who have dealt with me being pissy/moody for the past couple of weeks. And thanks to you guys for reading this. Lastly thanks to a girl named Sydney for keeping me busy and always calling to talk.
Ok so in other news, theres some good AMC drama going around. I'd love to quit right now but I cannot find another job. Either the places arent hiring or they pay lower than what i make. Im getting my tattos designed currently, and getting them in June. Next concert is Farewell To Twilight on June 4th, and its gonna be sick.
Like I said, no more bitchin, you guys rule.
XmarkX