~Thirteenth Act~
My mind has been everywhere but here. The internet is just... so impersonal. I'm much happier talking to people face-to-face than on this thing. Besides, of all the things I've remembered, my password isn't one of them. Darn
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Bloody fuck, Balthier.
I never wanted to tell you this, but....
I may not have another year to spend with her.
If the worst event happens, which it seems more and more likely that it will...
I never should have gotten involved with them. Never, never, never.
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I have told you every secret I have. You knew about Albanion, you knew my real name... You know everything about me and I know seemingly little about you. You're in trouble and you can't see fit to tell me about it.
I want to try and understand your radical madness and accept your insanity, but I'm going through a phase of rationality. I think the brain damage woke that latent part of my brain up.
You and I have been through everything, but now you're shutting me out and I can tell you're in trouble. So, I bid you to continue to keep your secrets. In return, I shall keep mine.
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My darkest secret involves you and what happened during July. Why you spent so long in hospital, why you had the seizures, why we're all constantly worried about you.
If you honestly want to know, I'll tell you everything. I don't mean to push you out at all! I just...didn't want you to know.
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It doesn't matter, Luxord. It's obviously important to you to keep this secret, so I'll do as you desire and let you.
This will put a definite strain on our friendship, but I'm certain you were prepared for that. If you weren't going to tell me before, straight out first time, I don't believe you'll tell me now.
Like you said, people change. I am not privy to such details. Perhaps it is better that way.
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I have to testify against them now, and I'm literally fearing for my life. That's why I don't want to--why I can't wait a year. I want to spend as much time with Miss Aeris as humanly possible, and although it is somewhat selfish of me, I want to be a father before I die.
I'm so incredibly sorry, Balthier. I deserve to be smashed into tiny pieces and dumped in a swamp to die alone.
Will you ever forgive me?
Should you ever forgive me, for that matter.
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I'm sorry, what?!
You...?! I got all of this brain damage, all of these seizures, all of this medication, trying so hard to get my life back... it was your fault?!
But why me and not someone else?!
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I feel like I don't even deserve forgiveness right now. Not for betraying you like that. I just felt so guilty about it, Bal, and I guess I should.
I probably don't deserve anything besides a quick kick to the temple. If you want to have the honour, that's fine. I understand.
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You watched them do all of that to me...?! All of it?! All of the torture, all of the interrogation... all of it?!
You didn't tell them where to find me... did you? You didn't give away exactly where I was, right...?
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I didn't tell them anything about you, and I never would have! I didn't even know you were going to be a part of this at all, until they showed the footage and made me watch it. The deal was that after I signed their damned contract, no one else would be involved besides me.
If you never forgive me, I understand. You shouldn't.
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I'm putting up an embargo against you. No talking to me, no being within 50 metres of me, no calling, no messaging, no communication of any kind. For three days.
That's my offer. Nothing else is available to you. We'll see how I feel about this then.
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