why do I squint so much?
I decided that I'm going to use live journal to talk about things in my day. Hopefully writing about it will make me see things that I couldn't see at that time. Oh, and btw, thanks a lot Yes, the layout is awesome.
School. Dropped off Eunice. Dropped off Eunice. Dropped off Esther Lee. Dropped off Maryann. Picked up Shawna and Hyunwoo. My House. Picked up Liz. Foxes Music store. Spent $9.88 on W.E. Hill & Sons Varnish Cleaner and Glaesel Polish Cloth. Dropped off Liz. Home. Nap. Fuck around doing nothing for an hour or so. Call Yes. Livejournal.
Ok now you're updated to the latest minute. Aren't you happy now? So lately I've been feeling really down for a couple reasons. One. because I don't get to see someone very often. Two because I feel left behind. and Three, because THERE IS NO SUN OUTSIDE WHATSOEVER. I guess I'll explain my second reasons. I remember a while ago, I had this weird dream. It was in my old neighborhood where a playground is and there were a whole bunch of kids there. Maybe hundreds. All in their normal clothing but with red capes. It was strange. Anyways, one by one, all of them started to fly. And I noticed that my brother and his friends were in their air too, having lots of fun. All of a sudden they look at me and start laughing. I notice that I have a black cape on... Anyways, I run and I try and lift up into their air. But I can't fly at all. I run and jump, and jump some more. And suddenly I can feel my body become drenched in this fear and anxiety... I start to cry. When I look up all of the kids who were hovering and playing around start to migrate away from me. flying away... leaving me beind.... my brother also going.
To this day I still have fears about being left behind for some reason. Even if I'm with a group of friends and say I squat to tie my shoe and they keep walking, I get this sudden feeling that they forgot who I am and that they didn't notice me. Basically I get really afraid. Creepy. Now that I'm officially getting out of my childhood I can say that it's been a strange and chaotic time for me. Hopefully the latter part of my life will bring about renewal or whatever.
woo. livejournal.
School. Dropped off Eunice. Dropped off Eunice. Dropped off Esther Lee. Dropped off Maryann. Picked up Shawna and Hyunwoo. My House. Picked up Liz. Foxes Music store. Spent $9.88 on W.E. Hill & Sons Varnish Cleaner and Glaesel Polish Cloth. Dropped off Liz. Home. Nap. Fuck around doing nothing for an hour or so. Call Yes. Livejournal.
Ok now you're updated to the latest minute. Aren't you happy now? So lately I've been feeling really down for a couple reasons. One. because I don't get to see someone very often. Two because I feel left behind. and Three, because THERE IS NO SUN OUTSIDE WHATSOEVER. I guess I'll explain my second reasons. I remember a while ago, I had this weird dream. It was in my old neighborhood where a playground is and there were a whole bunch of kids there. Maybe hundreds. All in their normal clothing but with red capes. It was strange. Anyways, one by one, all of them started to fly. And I noticed that my brother and his friends were in their air too, having lots of fun. All of a sudden they look at me and start laughing. I notice that I have a black cape on... Anyways, I run and I try and lift up into their air. But I can't fly at all. I run and jump, and jump some more. And suddenly I can feel my body become drenched in this fear and anxiety... I start to cry. When I look up all of the kids who were hovering and playing around start to migrate away from me. flying away... leaving me beind.... my brother also going.
To this day I still have fears about being left behind for some reason. Even if I'm with a group of friends and say I squat to tie my shoe and they keep walking, I get this sudden feeling that they forgot who I am and that they didn't notice me. Basically I get really afraid. Creepy. Now that I'm officially getting out of my childhood I can say that it's been a strange and chaotic time for me. Hopefully the latter part of my life will bring about renewal or whatever.
woo. livejournal.