dont i know its christmas
well its christmas and its the same things happend no im not charile brown im single im jobless and now thigs are way to fucked up than before i figured that one i could cut my wrist and become a mark to the sucide rate of the season or 2 i deal with it or 3 maybe i deal then cut but now im stuck on 2 so its all good i figured ill give life one more try who know maybe then i could make it hell its christmas and all the fucking shows ive watched for 23 years now at least one miracal could happend at least i know i have a friends like prismatic_jewel or outhers also but its my last christmas with my grandmother i know it is it hurts deep she is like the only female that has ever loved me to lose that is like loseing a parent but i also know that she would be in a better place free of pain then i would be truely alone god if you are real take care of her when you get her i have toyed with the idea of just packing up and leaveing for some place eles where i could chage my name and start new Randy Duncan JR would be dead to the world im sorry if this upsets anyone im just thinking right now