This picture's frozen and I can't get out
It's not that I don't have the time to sit here and try to show myself and everyone else out there that reads this everything and how I feel about everything that these eyes record, but for the most part, it's that I don't want to think about how I feel about something. I don't want to share it with you. Or sometimes I don't know how to feel about something, depending on what happens.
There's too much confusion going around. I'm lost. I can fill my mind with thoughts or just pretend to and act the same. This journal is such a mess. It only grabs one still moment at a time when I want to. I would guess around 1% of my feelings, if that. I keep trying to describe visions to allow me to relive a scene of my life, but how I feel about it takes over. Every single time. I can fight it, but then whatever it is would be absolutely worthless, no meaning.
Just like this entire entry.
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you
There's too much confusion going around. I'm lost. I can fill my mind with thoughts or just pretend to and act the same. This journal is such a mess. It only grabs one still moment at a time when I want to. I would guess around 1% of my feelings, if that. I keep trying to describe visions to allow me to relive a scene of my life, but how I feel about it takes over. Every single time. I can fight it, but then whatever it is would be absolutely worthless, no meaning.
Just like this entire entry.
Believe me, I'm just as lost as you