There is no parasol that could shelter this weather
woah... its been way to long since ive updated.
life is strange right now. I realy dont know how to explain it.
its probably the worst its ever been, and im probably the most content
ive ever been. is that even possible?
Really bad things just keep on happening in my life. but then yet good ones.
school equals bad
brian equals bad and good
allie equals best thing that has ever happened to me.
home life equals bad/content.
its ood.
ohhh yes. you probably want to know who brian is. well hes this 20 year old boy. not boy(friend)
its hard to explain. actually its really not that hard. we have sex. alot. i love it. but we also do other things then that. hes my world right now. hes what gets me by. its the smell of him on my clothes, the touch of his on my skin, the way he looks into my eyes. we are these two people that when were with each other were totally engolfed in each other. its just us. everything else thats going around doesnt seem to exsist. like theres nothing going on outside in the world, only the things happening inside the ugly ass walls (which i love by the way) of his 2 bedroom apartment. Ive never experienced anything like this in my entire life. it makes me ecstatic. but theres also an extreme shitty part. when were not each other were destructive on each other. were mean, we pretend we dont care, but i know that we both care so much it scares us, we both come from the same kind of child hood. we both had the same teenage phases. we both have been hurt so badly by the opposite sex and the ppl that we love. our relationship i cant continute to explain, because i dont knwo how, and i dont want too. im content with waht i have, and dont want to change it for anything.
thats life.
life is strange right now. I realy dont know how to explain it.
its probably the worst its ever been, and im probably the most content
ive ever been. is that even possible?
Really bad things just keep on happening in my life. but then yet good ones.
school equals bad
brian equals bad and good
allie equals best thing that has ever happened to me.
home life equals bad/content.
its ood.
ohhh yes. you probably want to know who brian is. well hes this 20 year old boy. not boy(friend)
its hard to explain. actually its really not that hard. we have sex. alot. i love it. but we also do other things then that. hes my world right now. hes what gets me by. its the smell of him on my clothes, the touch of his on my skin, the way he looks into my eyes. we are these two people that when were with each other were totally engolfed in each other. its just us. everything else thats going around doesnt seem to exsist. like theres nothing going on outside in the world, only the things happening inside the ugly ass walls (which i love by the way) of his 2 bedroom apartment. Ive never experienced anything like this in my entire life. it makes me ecstatic. but theres also an extreme shitty part. when were not each other were destructive on each other. were mean, we pretend we dont care, but i know that we both care so much it scares us, we both come from the same kind of child hood. we both had the same teenage phases. we both have been hurt so badly by the opposite sex and the ppl that we love. our relationship i cant continute to explain, because i dont knwo how, and i dont want too. im content with waht i have, and dont want to change it for anything.
thats life.