i just want you to turn around, turn around and see me cry.

[stpthspaintonit]

Ok... so right now at this moment i am very very hyper and it is currently 4:38 in the morning and i have yet to go to bed. I am sitting here on freddys little mini couch watching Autumn and James make out...Well im not really watching them make-out but you know its happening right next to me and i can hear everything that they are doing.Then downstairs we have Johnny and Allie sleeping together. Just completly cuddling, it is probably one of the cutest things ever.Im so happy for her. But the sad thing is that she is now leaving in 5 days. blahh that really really sucks. I hate this. Why does my best friend in this entire world have to leave me? And the even worse thing is that we started to become very distent but we rekindled our friendship. And its going to be even harder when she leaves seeings we have now spent the past like 4 days together. And we will be spending even more together. Pretty much everyday until she leaves, so this is going to be making things very very hard. Right now Freddy is dropping off Patrick back at his.... Kristin and Pat are very cute couple. Im very happy for her and i wish her the best of luck with him. But tonight i was soo hyper and just really happy. its been so long since i think i have been able to say that. Im kind of happy that johnny was nagging me so much to get off of the computer because i was just sitting here like this pathetic little girl waiting for  him to just come to me and talk... like i wish i had the whole thing that pat and kristin have... they truly like each other.... and its amazing. I want that. but too bad all of my relationships have been based around SEX. everyone thinks thats the way that i want it but thats deffinetly not. i mean yeah thats totally a nice little perk but if i was in  relationship with someone that i like i would totally not have any sex of any sort. but ya know...    like i seriously dont know where the hell i am going with any of this but i am like totally just in this odd mood where i wanna like type and get everything out, but there is so much to get out that i dont know where to start,stop,pause,rewind or fastforward.   hahaha a really really funny sort of thing is that i totally want Easton. Thats like totally weird, but damn that boy has changed so much....ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dont know... im going to end on this note.

ahhh... I'll probably update tomorrow night because i will be at freddys again im sure.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Katrina