sadness.

[stouf_a_loaf]

So I worked 4-12 today, and it was mighty busy. It was fun though, sort of. It was my last shift, because I'm going to Nova Scotia tomorrow morning, and won't be back until my birthday, July 31st. When I got home, we all gave my Mom her birthday presents. Her birthday is Wednesday, and we didn't want to have to bring all the stuff. I don't know, but it sucked. She probably hated it all. Birthday's aren't nearly as exciting as they are hyped up to be. This is probably much more true when you get to be in your thirtie's and forties. So at like 11 or so, Matt Lazenby was there picking up Sam, so I went up front and waved to him with a big smile on my face. We used to be friends, you know, and then after I did this, I realized that Shawn was standing right beside him, and he turned away and started walking to the door. He must have thought I was waving at him. He is sooooo (Anger). Oh well, I am over it. I haven't packed yet, and my Grandpa said that we have to leave at 9 a.m. I should really go to bed, but I am just much too pathetic and hyper for that. I can't remember how many diet coke's I have consumed today. It's disgusting, I haven't even been drinking water anymore. I used to drink 6-8 glasses a day. Now it's 1 or 2. GROSS. I realized today that I am sad and cranky, but don't like to admit it, or discuss anything. I guess I just like to keep everything bottled up inside of me, until I explode on my friends and family. I hate being cranky. I feel like a two year old child. *sigh*
I hope I feel better after this trip
Led, I'll miss you a lot. E-mail me. please.

Current thought: I .... am ......... different. And I really really really want to watch beauty and the beast, the little mermaid, and picnochio (sp?) but I don't have time.