Anxieties go away, it's time to perservere!
Now I think I've said before, I don't know anything about the technicalities of writing. I don't really know what an character arc is, my plot lines drive themselves most of the time, and well to be perfectly honest with you, I just kind of...write.
When I start thinking about technicalities, because I know I'll have to one day, I get kind of scared. I look at my 50-some-odd thousand word story and think, 'I've got it all wrong, I'm never going to make it as a writer, I'll end up staying here (which I don't want) doing what I do now, being a struggling teacher or something.'
Now I'm not knocking being a teacher, I wouldn't mind being one, it's just not what I'm looking for exactly in life. I've always feared not being able to be a writer, and looking back and seeing what I should have done to fulfill this goal.
I also don't want to stay where I live. I love the town, the setting, I just don't like the people. In my town the kids are cruel at a young age, and people tend to not leave. I want to live in an area where there are forests to wander through, freshwater lakes to swim in and in the winter, mountains to ski down, not new developments being put into an old quarry. (Am I ranting?)
My dreams are to leave, leave this state, leave this time zone, leave this country. Odds of that? Yeah I know they're slim, but you can do whatever you want if you really want to you know? That's what my mom always says to me. Always says you can be whatever you want to be, can do whatever you want to do. Until money comes in and says 'hahaha you don't have me so you can't go do what you want' yeah, exactly.
You know what, there are ways around that. There are ways around everything. (Did I mention some of them ARE legal?) I have the internet, I can learn, I just don't know where to start, when I figure that out I'll be on a roll.
Leaving? Get good grades, get a big ass scholarship(s), get out of the state and get a good job. That's what I need to start. I already get good grades, it's just making sure the best that they can be that's important. (Anyone know how to study? :])
So I guess, the moral of this, don't be afraid. Don't let the anxieties take control. If you think far enough ahead, you'll be able to beat things. Yeah walls will come up that will slow you down, but that's what make it all worth it right? You learn through experience more than you learn from getting something handed to you on a silver platter. These things I'm going through now, these anxieties I'm feeling, they're just one more road block I can move. With each movement of each roadblock, you learn something.
Don't be afraid of challenges. Accept them, and learn from mistakes. It's the only way to move on.
When I start thinking about technicalities, because I know I'll have to one day, I get kind of scared. I look at my 50-some-odd thousand word story and think, 'I've got it all wrong, I'm never going to make it as a writer, I'll end up staying here (which I don't want) doing what I do now, being a struggling teacher or something.'
Now I'm not knocking being a teacher, I wouldn't mind being one, it's just not what I'm looking for exactly in life. I've always feared not being able to be a writer, and looking back and seeing what I should have done to fulfill this goal.
I also don't want to stay where I live. I love the town, the setting, I just don't like the people. In my town the kids are cruel at a young age, and people tend to not leave. I want to live in an area where there are forests to wander through, freshwater lakes to swim in and in the winter, mountains to ski down, not new developments being put into an old quarry. (Am I ranting?)
My dreams are to leave, leave this state, leave this time zone, leave this country. Odds of that? Yeah I know they're slim, but you can do whatever you want if you really want to you know? That's what my mom always says to me. Always says you can be whatever you want to be, can do whatever you want to do. Until money comes in and says 'hahaha you don't have me so you can't go do what you want' yeah, exactly.
You know what, there are ways around that. There are ways around everything. (Did I mention some of them ARE legal?) I have the internet, I can learn, I just don't know where to start, when I figure that out I'll be on a roll.
Leaving? Get good grades, get a big ass scholarship(s), get out of the state and get a good job. That's what I need to start. I already get good grades, it's just making sure the best that they can be that's important. (Anyone know how to study? :])
So I guess, the moral of this, don't be afraid. Don't let the anxieties take control. If you think far enough ahead, you'll be able to beat things. Yeah walls will come up that will slow you down, but that's what make it all worth it right? You learn through experience more than you learn from getting something handed to you on a silver platter. These things I'm going through now, these anxieties I'm feeling, they're just one more road block I can move. With each movement of each roadblock, you learn something.
Don't be afraid of challenges. Accept them, and learn from mistakes. It's the only way to move on.