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[storyoftheyear]

yeah so it turns out... that my dad taught me how to load the film wrong... and yeah. so i didn't have film to take to my class tonight and i was already behind. even though tonight was the last night, i asked if i didn't have to go. and my mum said that i didn't have to. since it was embarassing enough last week... i didn't want to have to show up with nothing to print... so i went to open house at Ford for volleyball. the freshman don't know how to play. one girl even came in jeans. wtf, okay, you can't come to volleyball expecting to play in jeans. it just doesn't work like that. and tonight was Decap's [Val] last day of playing volleyball for a long while. :( she said she had fun, but... i doubt it, how could she with all the damn freshman. arg. yeah... i dunno today coulda been a better day... but it wasn't. and i'm starting to get all... freaked out/paranoid like i was... i'm not so much anymore. or wasn't. but now i am... it's all coming back. i started to feel safe again. but yet. i feel myself slipping away and everything's coming back. all the old feelings, all the old thoughts, everything. Stacey's finally getting a cable modem. news to everyone's ears. haha... yeah enough for tonight...

i want everything to go back to the way it was... :/