The End Result: Good
Today's end result would have been good. It was great for so much of it, with only a four incidents to bring me down.
Bad:
1. Mom yelled at me this morning. However this wasn't super bad, as I didn't let it get to me too much. Unfortunately I think the residual bad energy from this event snowballed with the addition of the next three events.
2. Kayley = Awkward meanness that hurts my feelings but is just a joke to her.
3. Emily revealing that Kayley has said that I "take control", in a negative way. For a really long time I was upset by this. I didn't know how to react, as I had never even considered Kayley would say this about me, and I was angry/hurt/confused/angry. Lots of emotions to try and deal with while all the while paying attention to your choir director. (We we're in choir at the time, keep up people.) AND I'm really worried that I do come off as controlling when I shouldn't be. I mean, I know I'm controlling but I thought I had a pretty good handle on it. I really wanted to cry a little bit. Kayley usually makes me feel that way.
I mean... lots of people sort of make me feel like crying... but Kayley does most often second only to my mother. Love what that says about my relationships, considering Kayley was my first girlfriend and my mom's, well.. my mom.
Anyway, my solution to this problem is that Kayley is not a good friend for me. I'm not going to confront her, as I think it will only create defensiveness resulting in anger and more upsetting on my part, instead I'm going to distance myself from her. Aaaah solutions. But I really hop[e I'm doing the right thing here. I'll let you know how tomorrow at school goes...
4. Mom stress while driving, almost hitting a person opening their car door, and lots of little slip ups. Damn I hate driving. I don't think I have the brain for it. I can't pay attention for longer than a minute at a time, and that doesn't bode well for death vehicles! ... I mean cars.
The Good:
1. Face acne was relativity minor.
2. Outfit was stunning. A beige three-quarters length sleeve cotton jacket, white flowing tank top (tight around the bust then loose) with tiny brown buttons, dark blue wash caprice, pink ballet flats, and to complete it my dark pink/white flowered scarf worn as a sort of "headband".
2. Got tons of compliments on said stunning outfit.
3. Wore minimal makeup (foundation, one shade eyeshadow, and mascara) and still felt really pretty.
4. Enjoyed classes.
5. Bonded with a friend who I had grown apart from.
6. Remembered to hand out the birthday invites for Friday!
7. Celebrated because Kayley can't come to said birthday party! Shouldn't have invited her in the first place...
8. Went to the beach.
9. SUN.
10. New episode of Glee.
11. ACCEPTED INTO UBCO.
12. AWARDED SCHOLARSHIP FOR UBCO. Don't know how much yet... haha. They didn't include that bit of not important at all (*SARCASM!*) info in the e-mail.
13. I was drinking cranberry juice was typing this, which is one of my favourite drinks. €€
Bad:
1. Mom yelled at me this morning. However this wasn't super bad, as I didn't let it get to me too much. Unfortunately I think the residual bad energy from this event snowballed with the addition of the next three events.
2. Kayley = Awkward meanness that hurts my feelings but is just a joke to her.
3. Emily revealing that Kayley has said that I "take control", in a negative way. For a really long time I was upset by this. I didn't know how to react, as I had never even considered Kayley would say this about me, and I was angry/hurt/confused/angry. Lots of emotions to try and deal with while all the while paying attention to your choir director. (We we're in choir at the time, keep up people.) AND I'm really worried that I do come off as controlling when I shouldn't be. I mean, I know I'm controlling but I thought I had a pretty good handle on it. I really wanted to cry a little bit. Kayley usually makes me feel that way.
I mean... lots of people sort of make me feel like crying... but Kayley does most often second only to my mother. Love what that says about my relationships, considering Kayley was my first girlfriend and my mom's, well.. my mom.
Anyway, my solution to this problem is that Kayley is not a good friend for me. I'm not going to confront her, as I think it will only create defensiveness resulting in anger and more upsetting on my part, instead I'm going to distance myself from her. Aaaah solutions. But I really hop[e I'm doing the right thing here. I'll let you know how tomorrow at school goes...
4. Mom stress while driving, almost hitting a person opening their car door, and lots of little slip ups. Damn I hate driving. I don't think I have the brain for it. I can't pay attention for longer than a minute at a time, and that doesn't bode well for death vehicles! ... I mean cars.
The Good:
1. Face acne was relativity minor.
2. Outfit was stunning. A beige three-quarters length sleeve cotton jacket, white flowing tank top (tight around the bust then loose) with tiny brown buttons, dark blue wash caprice, pink ballet flats, and to complete it my dark pink/white flowered scarf worn as a sort of "headband".
2. Got tons of compliments on said stunning outfit.
3. Wore minimal makeup (foundation, one shade eyeshadow, and mascara) and still felt really pretty.
4. Enjoyed classes.
5. Bonded with a friend who I had grown apart from.
6. Remembered to hand out the birthday invites for Friday!
7. Celebrated because Kayley can't come to said birthday party! Shouldn't have invited her in the first place...
8. Went to the beach.
9. SUN.
10. New episode of Glee.
11. ACCEPTED INTO UBCO.
12. AWARDED SCHOLARSHIP FOR UBCO. Don't know how much yet... haha. They didn't include that bit of not important at all (*SARCASM!*) info in the e-mail.
13. I was drinking cranberry juice was typing this, which is one of my favourite drinks. €€