"just a p.s. this is our little secret alright?"
so the other day i tell meghan that i think im back to my 'i just dont give a fuck' state of mind, and just tonight i followed that up with saying thats when things tend to get a little outta hand... (i was right! ooops) but seriously, u know what FUN NOW, CONSEQUENCES LATER... those times seem to be the only times i really do anything that i actually want, and have a damn good time doing it... altho, i just realized moments ago that curiosity has alot to do with what drives me to do some of the shit i do... tuesday was the start of it all, and im so grateful, good times all around! dinner at Chili's, then hung out with the boys ;-)~ Tim's awesome birthday house party that included some serious flip cup, the non-drinkers group formed by carlos and i, oh and of course the PUNK BOYS!!! (good eye meg!) haha, that brought so much fun to the group, thank u to Rick for making the return prank call! ("ferris wheels, i LOVE ferris wheels""i have red hair, freckles, im gorgeous!") it was like the good 'ol days! loved it... found a song last night called "what did i get myself into" i wonder that alot, but fuck it, i have a few weeks until i leave the country for 21 days, ill be on the other side of the goddamn world, which is gonna be absolutely insane!! so until i go, im gonna make the best of it and get into as much scandal as i damn well please... its funny how tonight ive found myself with the idea of persuing things that 3 days ago i wouldnt even have fathomed, haha... speechless! things are on the verge of getting extremely interesting perhaps... i mean, u cant truly discover your likes and dislikes until you dab into a bit of everything i guess?
edit add-in: i just walked out of my room and the sun is about to rise, its starting to get light outside, i suppose i should be sleeping... and something else i noticed, the pastor the other morning said that all men are dogs, and drew even told me that its completely true (strange considering... but you can't blame the kid, he's always been dead honest which is a good thing no matter), the funny thing is that ive noticed with my own eyes, they stay long enough to get what they want and away they go, is it odd then that i just laugh it off without a care because i know its in their nature? just a thought, dont take it too seriously... i cant remember the last time i stayed up till the sun was rising... id like to say it was the night meg came over for girl talk at 5am, and we gushed our secrets until 7!!! whooooooooooooooooo =) so so happy, and the academy is just started playing on my comp. wonder what ill dream about, anything but the 6 months pregnant dream will do! hah, out
edit add-in: i just walked out of my room and the sun is about to rise, its starting to get light outside, i suppose i should be sleeping... and something else i noticed, the pastor the other morning said that all men are dogs, and drew even told me that its completely true (strange considering... but you can't blame the kid, he's always been dead honest which is a good thing no matter), the funny thing is that ive noticed with my own eyes, they stay long enough to get what they want and away they go, is it odd then that i just laugh it off without a care because i know its in their nature? just a thought, dont take it too seriously... i cant remember the last time i stayed up till the sun was rising... id like to say it was the night meg came over for girl talk at 5am, and we gushed our secrets until 7!!! whooooooooooooooooo =) so so happy, and the academy is just started playing on my comp. wonder what ill dream about, anything but the 6 months pregnant dream will do! hah, out