you completely stole my heart and now you wont let go...
mvsingerchik: unless you want me going to a party by myself or with a guy i barely know let alone trust then you might consider coming to see me
cowboyj060385: what parties have you gone to
mvsingerchik: none yet
mvsingerchik: but im staying here this weekend and i wanted to find some
mvsingerchik: i do live across from every single frat house here at ball state im sure there will be something going on
cowboyj060385: well right now babe i dont have much money cuz i am setting some back
cowboyj060385: brb
mvsingerchik: mk
cowboyj060385: aight babe
mvsingerchik: k
cowboyj060385: is that not what you want to hear or something like that
mvsingerchik: what do you think
cowboyj060385: belive me i want to get up there but i dont see it happening this weekend
mvsingerchik: why the hell not
cowboyj060385: because like i said i dont have much money right now and i dont feel like taking a long drive after just getting my truck fixed you understand what i am saying'
mvsingerchik: yeah
mvsingerchik: i always do
mvsingerchik: and thats the problem
mvsingerchik: im the chore you have to do when you feel like it or when its convienent for you to take time away from doing nothing all fucking day
cowboyj060385: excuse me
mvsingerchik: you heard me
mvsingerchik: and dont get pissed at me b/c i havent done a damn thing wrong
cowboyj060385: really your not doing anything wrong your pretty much saying that your just there and that is not true at all
mvsingerchik: then why the hell do i feel like it joe!
mvsingerchik: i can sacrifice everything for you, i dont have much money either but even without a car i manage to come and see you for a whole weekend
mvsingerchik: b/c i want to and b/c i know it makes you happy
mvsingerchik: im more hurt than mad...
mvsingerchik: i try so damn hard to juggle my life...and i always have but heaven forbid anyone do anything to help me be happy
cowboyj060385: fuck it i am not arguing with you any more
mvsingerchik: are you saying you want me to walk away...
mvsingerchik: im not...im just very stressed and i have been worrying and all i want is you
cowboyj060385: what are you worried about
mvsingerchik: you
mvsingerchik: you dont talk to me for 3 days at a time and you think its okay to do that but you dont know how it drives me crazy
mvsingerchik: i need you
mvsingerchik: why dont you see it...i cant live without you, i would do anything for you, die for you if you needed me to...
cowboyj060385: why i can take care of my ownself when need be i am a grown adult
mvsingerchik: and all i want is to share a life with you but for some reason its so hard to do
mvsingerchik: thats not the point joe...i love you more than i love myself and i put you first before i put myself
mvsingerchik: so if you're looking out for you and im looking out for you then who looks out for me?
cowboyj060385: thats because its a fucking long distance relationship
mvsingerchik: im not trying to sound selfish
cowboyj060385: yeah i know that
cowboyj060385: but you're asking me to take the risk of me being stranded up there and i really cant take that risk right its been one day since i had to drive
mvsingerchik: you know i wouldnt let that happen
mvsingerchik: and its not just about that joe...i love you so damn much but i dont know if you see it or not i havent eaten since yesterday at breakfast, i only slept for 4 hours last night and i cried mysef to sleep
cowboyj060385: why
mvsingerchik: im doing well in school despite being that way....you drive me crazy but i wouldnt trade it for the world b/c if i didnt have you i wouldnt knwo what to do....i wouldnt have any reason to do what i do and to try so hard and be everything you need
mvsingerchik: just...love me....really love me...heart and soul
cowboyj060385: i already do
mvsingerchik: and im telling you i need you....
cowboyj060385: i need you too
That was the most intense fight I have ever had with anyone. And after all of that he said, "i love you and im coming to see you tomorrow and stay with you this weekend." So everything is okay and if it isnt it will be very soon. I think he was just angry that i let it build up for this long and then blew up at him. I cried so much last night, happy tears and sad tears. But in the end I am happy b/c i have someone who loves me enough to love me when im angry with him...he's the one.
cowboyj060385: what parties have you gone to
mvsingerchik: none yet
mvsingerchik: but im staying here this weekend and i wanted to find some
mvsingerchik: i do live across from every single frat house here at ball state im sure there will be something going on
cowboyj060385: well right now babe i dont have much money cuz i am setting some back
cowboyj060385: brb
mvsingerchik: mk
cowboyj060385: aight babe
mvsingerchik: k
cowboyj060385: is that not what you want to hear or something like that
mvsingerchik: what do you think
cowboyj060385: belive me i want to get up there but i dont see it happening this weekend
mvsingerchik: why the hell not
cowboyj060385: because like i said i dont have much money right now and i dont feel like taking a long drive after just getting my truck fixed you understand what i am saying'
mvsingerchik: yeah
mvsingerchik: i always do
mvsingerchik: and thats the problem
mvsingerchik: im the chore you have to do when you feel like it or when its convienent for you to take time away from doing nothing all fucking day
cowboyj060385: excuse me
mvsingerchik: you heard me
mvsingerchik: and dont get pissed at me b/c i havent done a damn thing wrong
cowboyj060385: really your not doing anything wrong your pretty much saying that your just there and that is not true at all
mvsingerchik: then why the hell do i feel like it joe!
mvsingerchik: i can sacrifice everything for you, i dont have much money either but even without a car i manage to come and see you for a whole weekend
mvsingerchik: b/c i want to and b/c i know it makes you happy
mvsingerchik: im more hurt than mad...
mvsingerchik: i try so damn hard to juggle my life...and i always have but heaven forbid anyone do anything to help me be happy
cowboyj060385: fuck it i am not arguing with you any more
mvsingerchik: are you saying you want me to walk away...
mvsingerchik: im not...im just very stressed and i have been worrying and all i want is you
cowboyj060385: what are you worried about
mvsingerchik: you
mvsingerchik: you dont talk to me for 3 days at a time and you think its okay to do that but you dont know how it drives me crazy
mvsingerchik: i need you
mvsingerchik: why dont you see it...i cant live without you, i would do anything for you, die for you if you needed me to...
cowboyj060385: why i can take care of my ownself when need be i am a grown adult
mvsingerchik: and all i want is to share a life with you but for some reason its so hard to do
mvsingerchik: thats not the point joe...i love you more than i love myself and i put you first before i put myself
mvsingerchik: so if you're looking out for you and im looking out for you then who looks out for me?
cowboyj060385: thats because its a fucking long distance relationship
mvsingerchik: im not trying to sound selfish
cowboyj060385: yeah i know that
cowboyj060385: but you're asking me to take the risk of me being stranded up there and i really cant take that risk right its been one day since i had to drive
mvsingerchik: you know i wouldnt let that happen
mvsingerchik: and its not just about that joe...i love you so damn much but i dont know if you see it or not i havent eaten since yesterday at breakfast, i only slept for 4 hours last night and i cried mysef to sleep
cowboyj060385: why
mvsingerchik: im doing well in school despite being that way....you drive me crazy but i wouldnt trade it for the world b/c if i didnt have you i wouldnt knwo what to do....i wouldnt have any reason to do what i do and to try so hard and be everything you need
mvsingerchik: just...love me....really love me...heart and soul
cowboyj060385: i already do
mvsingerchik: and im telling you i need you....
cowboyj060385: i need you too
That was the most intense fight I have ever had with anyone. And after all of that he said, "i love you and im coming to see you tomorrow and stay with you this weekend." So everything is okay and if it isnt it will be very soon. I think he was just angry that i let it build up for this long and then blew up at him. I cried so much last night, happy tears and sad tears. But in the end I am happy b/c i have someone who loves me enough to love me when im angry with him...he's the one.