hey... curtis...
Curtis Ezekeil Adarme
October 25, 2007
Yeah... He was born... 46 days after I was told he existed... I even saw a picture...
So what happens now... In my head, whenever I think of her, I say "I fuckin' hate you," over and over and over... I've seen Curtis' picture now and I dont even know what to feel... I guess I wait for the mother to call...
Maybe I won't get over this... Maybe I just have to live with it... I'm sure I'll feel better eventually... Trying to be optimistic here... Although I have a feeling (here we go) that if Mariah is lying to me again about her plans... Then eventually shes going to fuck with me again as soon as she decides shes over the whole 'love' or 'caring' thing. There will be a day she stops caring and THEN... unknown
I'll go back to waiting...
October 25, 2007
Yeah... He was born... 46 days after I was told he existed... I even saw a picture...
So what happens now... In my head, whenever I think of her, I say "I fuckin' hate you," over and over and over... I've seen Curtis' picture now and I dont even know what to feel... I guess I wait for the mother to call...
Maybe I won't get over this... Maybe I just have to live with it... I'm sure I'll feel better eventually... Trying to be optimistic here... Although I have a feeling (here we go) that if Mariah is lying to me again about her plans... Then eventually shes going to fuck with me again as soon as she decides shes over the whole 'love' or 'caring' thing. There will be a day she stops caring and THEN... unknown
I'll go back to waiting...