the paramedics are on standby
ok thought.
i was trying to figure out why even though it makes sense to be with certain people, it just doesn't work out. i mean there's probably for every person, like 4 people floating around who KINDA make sense. and yet ur still alone.
and what i think is this: a huge part of being attracted to someone is not so much what they look like or their sense of humor, how smart they are or how nice they come out on paper yadda yadda, it's how you feel when you are around them. when someone makes you genuinely happy, and genuinely glad to be yourself, that's the person you are going to feel strongest about.
you can be with someone totally gorgeous, or someone who is really funny, but if you don't feel good about urself when ur around them, none of that is any good.
and the truth is, while theyre are plenty pf people who could potentially work out, there is like a microscopic group out of those who can make you feel so incredible.
right now im crazy about someone who doesn't know it. when i'm with him he makes me feel like im wonderful, and beautiful and perfect. and i think the same of him, and complain as i might to everyone and anyone, i get the same answer everytime- just tell him. well maybe i will. and the thought actually makes me physically ill. then again, it can't hurt to wait a little bit longer. maybe after christmas break...
i guess i'm still in shocked that i can feel like that. i've been kind of a hardened bitch lately.
but i relish in risk-taking, so as miserable as i am over this person, a part of me is loving it. i mean this is the point of it all right? regardless of whether u recieve any in return, just love someone. go nuts once in a while. fall down. get demolished.
if i learned anything in this awful awful year, its that getting hurt is obviously not the end of the world.
i was trying to figure out why even though it makes sense to be with certain people, it just doesn't work out. i mean there's probably for every person, like 4 people floating around who KINDA make sense. and yet ur still alone.
and what i think is this: a huge part of being attracted to someone is not so much what they look like or their sense of humor, how smart they are or how nice they come out on paper yadda yadda, it's how you feel when you are around them. when someone makes you genuinely happy, and genuinely glad to be yourself, that's the person you are going to feel strongest about.
you can be with someone totally gorgeous, or someone who is really funny, but if you don't feel good about urself when ur around them, none of that is any good.
and the truth is, while theyre are plenty pf people who could potentially work out, there is like a microscopic group out of those who can make you feel so incredible.
right now im crazy about someone who doesn't know it. when i'm with him he makes me feel like im wonderful, and beautiful and perfect. and i think the same of him, and complain as i might to everyone and anyone, i get the same answer everytime- just tell him. well maybe i will. and the thought actually makes me physically ill. then again, it can't hurt to wait a little bit longer. maybe after christmas break...
i guess i'm still in shocked that i can feel like that. i've been kind of a hardened bitch lately.
but i relish in risk-taking, so as miserable as i am over this person, a part of me is loving it. i mean this is the point of it all right? regardless of whether u recieve any in return, just love someone. go nuts once in a while. fall down. get demolished.
if i learned anything in this awful awful year, its that getting hurt is obviously not the end of the world.