i need to vent ! badly!!!
what is wrong with me?. i'm sitting here staring at your screenname. waiting to see if anything changes.. you do not understand what you do to me.. i've really just decided.. i'm done with getting so worked up over you. you tell me one thing but you act totally different. i'm sorry that i'm never going to be good enough for you.. i'm sorry i'm not the thinnest person, or the prettiest, i'm sorry i'm not the nicest person and i'm sorry i get upset when you mess around with me.. but i cant change that. for people that dont know me.. they think that i'm just a bitch.. so maybe i should start living up to my expectations.. and become a heartless bitch.? maybe that would make me better for you?.. or maybe it would just hide my true feelings from people and myself. idk. i'm just really done with getting so excited and then disapointed. and that goes for everything.. not just you. so to anyone thats reading this. i'm sorry if i'm a bitch from now on.. but maybe thats just easier. i've put my heart out on the line so many times.. and everytime it just gets taken advantage of. i refuse to open up to anyone from now on because i just give way to much out to get shot down & taken away from me. from now on its fair game. its your call from now on.. whereever you want this to go is going to be up to you until i get myself figured out. oh well. i guess this is just what it comes down to. i dont even care anymore. its summer. and i'm done.