Good and bad... life is never simple.
I may whine on LJ, but there are far, far worse things to be in. Like a terrible accident. On Sunday I found out our old team leader, Mariam, got hit by a train on Friday night. One of the sales managers was there too and he was killed. He was just 21. She's in intensive care and apparently the doctors said she wouldn't make it. But she's still alive - just. They operated for 8 hours - her torso was completely crushed.
They (and loads of other people) were out as it was her going away party. She was going travelling all around the world. She'd been saving up for months. And now - she's in St Georges and she might never wake up. We've all been in shock, at work. Mariam is such a lovely, fantastically nice girl. They must have got absolutely wasted and slipped from the platform somehow. No one seems to know exactly.
It makes me feel guilty, somehow, even though I wasn't there. Maybe because I'd had a bad fight with my sister the night before. I'd walked out of the house in a state and worried my parents. I daren't think what they'd have felt like if something had happened to me. It's so horrible. I just feel sick thinking about it. Apparently it took 2 hours to get them out from under the train. It's so surreal. What is it when shit like that happens? Are they to blame because they were drunk? Is it coincidence? Fate? Some people seem to think so. I just think regardless of how careless they might have been, it was wholly undeserved. And I don't believe in predestination. Another random fluctuation in the space-time continuum, but a very cruel one. Poor Mariam and Gustav.
Otherwise, I did some fun things this week. Went to see the hilarious Tenacious D in The Pick of Destiny on Saturday with blackbeltbarbie. Then we went round to daimon_hyperion's for mulled wine and a mini Christmas dinner (ok, it was just a small roast, but it was tasty!) We helped her put up her Christmas tree, and it's beautiful. :)
We also went to see Starter for Ten, a really cute geeky film about University Challenge! So of course I loved it. It had the adorable James McAvoy in it - its nice to see him not in Narnia, it would be creepy to perve over him as Mr Tumnus! XD
I also went to see Casino Royale. It kicks arse. It *is* the best Bond film ever. Gritty, hard-hitting, Bond is finally a spy - and a human - and not a mere action hero. It must be seen.
I don't pray, but people are praying for Mariam. And somehow, despite that it doesn't make a difference in my mind, it feels like it does.
They (and loads of other people) were out as it was her going away party. She was going travelling all around the world. She'd been saving up for months. And now - she's in St Georges and she might never wake up. We've all been in shock, at work. Mariam is such a lovely, fantastically nice girl. They must have got absolutely wasted and slipped from the platform somehow. No one seems to know exactly.
It makes me feel guilty, somehow, even though I wasn't there. Maybe because I'd had a bad fight with my sister the night before. I'd walked out of the house in a state and worried my parents. I daren't think what they'd have felt like if something had happened to me. It's so horrible. I just feel sick thinking about it. Apparently it took 2 hours to get them out from under the train. It's so surreal. What is it when shit like that happens? Are they to blame because they were drunk? Is it coincidence? Fate? Some people seem to think so. I just think regardless of how careless they might have been, it was wholly undeserved. And I don't believe in predestination. Another random fluctuation in the space-time continuum, but a very cruel one. Poor Mariam and Gustav.
Otherwise, I did some fun things this week. Went to see the hilarious Tenacious D in The Pick of Destiny on Saturday with blackbeltbarbie. Then we went round to daimon_hyperion's for mulled wine and a mini Christmas dinner (ok, it was just a small roast, but it was tasty!) We helped her put up her Christmas tree, and it's beautiful. :)
We also went to see Starter for Ten, a really cute geeky film about University Challenge! So of course I loved it. It had the adorable James McAvoy in it - its nice to see him not in Narnia, it would be creepy to perve over him as Mr Tumnus! XD
I also went to see Casino Royale. It kicks arse. It *is* the best Bond film ever. Gritty, hard-hitting, Bond is finally a spy - and a human - and not a mere action hero. It must be seen.
I don't pray, but people are praying for Mariam. And somehow, despite that it doesn't make a difference in my mind, it feels like it does.