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Last night it really hit me that me and harry are done. everyone had there boys and were messing around with them and... i was sitting on the computer... by my slef. all i wanted to do was be with harry. It makes me so sad knowing that i wont be with him anymore.everything that i did over the summer i feel like ive done it with him. and as im trying to figure out what to do today all i want is to be with him. i wanted to go to bumbershoot... but i wanted to do that with him... and i really wanted to go to a fair with him... and me and cora were thinking about going to a fair instead of bumbershoot... because were not going anymore... even tho we had a very rocky relationship i miss him dearly its only been 2 days... and ive just felt like complete shit every minuite of it. last night i called him when i was drunk all i wanted to do is hold him. the last time i saw him i didnt want him to leave i freaking would not let go of him... i think i knew that it would be one of the last times i got to do so... you would never think that a 3 minuite phonecall would be the worst phone call ever. last night when i called him it just just nice to hear his voice. im so tempted to just call him agian... but thats not gonna help anything... its crazy what boys can do to you. crying has never been so useless. usually i feel better but it just makes me more sad.