i hate life...
i donno whats up with me... im just not into it right now.... i just started crying...(only in one eye?) i donno why maybe because im sick or maybe because i feel that the whole world is falling appart from under me. someone said something to me today and i think its really getting to me and i donno why... its nothing bad or anything it was just that i havent really thought about it and the way i see things... i feel like shit... and i think im in another one of my moods where everything goes wrong... and i just came outta nowhere i was having a lovely day at school and once i got on this freakin computer to do homework i started thinking about everything and i think about how i hate every thing and about how i wish i could just change or start over. i know life isnt easy and i need to just fucking deal with it but people make a big deal out of everything... all the time i ask my self... why am i talking about this im just bitching or whatever... i donno... maybe its the people around me... it just seems lately that everyone has problems and i donno if i can handle it anymore. i think its because i dont feel good im like this... because i really cant breathe at all... i have to foccus on it... and theres that tickly thing im my throught that i feel like i need to cough it out... maybe like a hairball or something... for some odd reason its wouldnt surprise me if i had a hairball... i got all this hair... and it tends to end up in my mouth often.... well at least i dont lick it... OK IM DONE!! anyways so today im going to the drill team christmas party.... i donno if im excited or not... it seems that im not... i donno BLEH I HATE BEING IN ONE OF THESE MOODS.... its probally best if you stay 34878 ft away from me and not say anything